Page 68 of Silent Tears

After everything we have been through over the years, I should have fucking seen this coming. We should have known that something was happening in the shadows.

I tighten my arms around Nicole and force us both to back up as the paramedics pick up Christian and put him on the stretcher. I lean down, resting my lips against Nicole’s ear as her knees give out. I tighten my arms around her as Christian is taken out of the room.

The sound that leaves her will haunt me until the day I take my last breath. “I got you,” I whisper into her ear.

My heart is racing as her body starts to relax against mine. I will keep my promise to my best friend. I will protect his wife with my life.

And I will pray that the devil, the fallen angels, don’t take him from us.

70

Ty

One Week Later

Nicole refused to leave the hospital, so I stayed by her side. I can’t keep my promise to my best friend if I am not always with Nicole. The doctors say that he is in a coma from the trauma. It was touch and go for a while, but they have finally stabilized him.

For now, anyway.

Seeing Christian in a hospital bed makes me feel things I never thought I would. I never thought we would end up here. And now that we are here, I feel fucking helpless. I hate this feeling, the feeling that there is nothing I can do to help but sit here and fucking wait.

The doctors say he will wake up in time, but they can’t tell us if there is any damage until he opens his eyes. I pray to a god I don’t believe in every fucking day that he will open up his eyes. People like us know what this life is and what can happen. We should have been more careful. I should have forced Christian just to kill the father. I understand why Christian was doing it the way he was. He was doing it for Nicole, and I think I am starting to understand why.

He loves and looks at Nicole the same way I love and look at Lyric. She doesn’t know my feelings, and she isn’t ready to, and honestly, I don’t think I am either. But I have been watching her from a distance, making sure that she is safe.

Christian and I are one and the same with many fucking things, and our women are one of them, even when they don’t know they are ours yet.

I lean against the wall, watching Nicole sleeping beside Christian on the bed. She has been trying to stay awake in case he wakes up, but the blackness of sleep has finally taken her away. She needs rest even though she fought like hell to stay awake.

Nicole is a strong woman, and I can see why Christian loves her. She challenges him. She has a darkness inside her that matches his. He deserves someone like her, and she deserves someone like him.

Even though we are not good people, Christian and I, we both deserve to find some kind of fucking happiness in this fucked up world that is filled with chaos and darkness.

I take a deep breath as I push off the wall and leave the room and down the hallway. I walk into the cafeteria to get some coffee, and my heart stops when I feel a hand on my lower back. I turn and look down and see Lyric staring up at me with concern in her eyes.

I want her so fucking bad; it is taking over everything inside my head. I don’t know what it is about her, but something about her calls to me, something that is becoming stronger and stronger, and one of these days I won’t be able to fucking hold myself back.

I lift my hand and gently brush the side of her face, and she closes her eyes for a moment. “Everything is going to be alright,” I whisper as I drop my hand from her face. She opens her eyes and nods.

Fuck me, I am in trouble.

71

Nicole

Iopen my eyes and look up at Christian. His breathing is calm, and his eyes are closed. I feel the tears building in my eyes as I look over his face.

He was willing to give his life for mine, just like I knew I would give my life for his. I am not ready to lose him yet. I need him, I want him, and I love him so fucking much it fucking hurts.

I am pissed at him for getting hurt, pissed because right now, I am more scared than I have ever been. I need him to come back to me. I need him to fucking open his eyes and reassure me that he is not gone.

It has been a week, and he lays still on the bed. The doctors keep giving Ty and me updates, and every update makes my heart sink because they never say what I need to hear. I just need them to fucking tell me that he will be okay. That everything is going to be okay. But so far, the doctor hasn’t said those words. He has only told us we can only wait for him to wake up.

I am scared that my Christian is gone, that my revenge has cost me the one man that has ever really loved me. Christian went to my father’s house to help me get revenge against my father. If I knew this would fucking happen, I would have just let Christian kill him.

I never saw any of this coming, my cousin or Sebastian being my uncle. All of it is fucking twisted and wrong. My father admitting that he killed my mother and that he forced her to be a whore before she died.

Why the fuck didn’t I see any of this?

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