Then, with a lot more confidence than I felt, I strode through the apartment, and out the door.
The guards jumped and straightened, both sharing a worried look.
“What do you think you’re doing?” one of them asked.
“Leaving,” I said, taking steps toward the elevator, only to have my arm snagged by one of them.
I carefully lowered my gaze to that hand, then just as slowly back to his face.
“I don’t think Cosimo would like you putting your hands on me,” I said in a ‘cold, hard, bitch’ tone I’d heard Lauren need to adopt from time to time when someone was disrespecting her.
When I say he dropped my arm fast, you would have sworn I’d burned him.
“I’m leaving. You can follow if you want to, but I’m leaving,” I said, hitting the button for the elevator.
I wasn’t surprised when they joined me, though I was a bit disappointed. I kind of hoped they would just accept that I was a free woman, allowed to come and go if she wanted to.
Apparently, that was not the case.
But it was fine.
I had a plan.
One I was crossing my fingers would work.
I strode down the street, feeling one of them beside me, and the other behind.
I had to admit that it felt good just to be outside, to be moving, to feel the damn sun on my face. I don’t think I’d ever been stuck inside for so long before.
“I need to go in here,” I declared as I turned into the pharmacy.
I’d been there a million times before. I knew it like the back of my hand.
I was counting on their discomfort as I led them confidently down the feminine care aisle, and I wasn’t exactly disappointed by how tense they seemed as I grabbed a box of tampons off the shelf, then opened it, and pulled one out.
“I have to run to the bathroom,” I told them, waving the tampon at one of them while pushing the box into the other one’s hands.
Then I made a beeline for the bathroom. Much like a woman in need of a tampon would.
The thing was, the ladies room was down a hallway that opened up at the other end as well. So I just kept walking, tossing the tampon into the trash, then emerging behind my guards who were so busy feeling uncomfortable about holding a box of tampons that they weren’t scanning the store like they might normally be.
I just… walked right out.
Back into the crush of people.
I had no money, so I couldn’t escape into a cab or the subway like I could if I did. But I’d chosen the most understated outfit I could when I’d chosen what I was going to wear.
I reached up, twisting my hair into the claw clip I’d had hanging off the bottom of my sweater, hoping that they wouldn’t be smart enough to spot the difference in a crowd as I picked up the pace.
I wasn’t that far from Lauren’s place.
And her doorman knew me.
He would let me in.
Lauren wouldn’t be home, but that was okay.
I could see if I remembered her number to call her, ask her to unlock the door with her phone app.