I took a deep breath. What was I doing? This felt like such a mistake. But, didn’t Lou deserve to be with someone who wasn’t embarrassed about his feelings? Wasn’t that the one redeeming quality about Sey?
“When I was at Lou’s place, things happened between us,” I told him suddenly feeling uncomfortably warm.
“What type of things?”
I took another deep breath.
“That’s alright. Take your time,” Cali said sweetly. It gave me the confidence to continue.
“We kissed.”
“Wow!” Cali said with a lot less surprise than I was expecting.
“Yeah. And I might have told him that I was in love with him and that I have been from the moment we met,” I said feeling my face flush.
“Is that true?”
“What?”
“That you were in love with him since the moment you met?”
“Yeah,” I admitted for the first time to anyone.
“That’s amazing.”
“Why do you say that?”
“I don’t know. It takes a lot of courage. Thanks for sharing that. It means a lot to me.”
Out of all of the ways I could see this conversation going, him saying that it meant a lot that I told him, wasn’t one of them. What was I supposed to say to that?
“Thanks for being cool about it.”
Cali lowered his head turning red.
“What?” I asked seeing there was something he wasn’t saying.
“I had a crush on a guy,” he said shyly.
“You did?” I paused and thought about it. “Is it someone I know?”
He shook his head embarrassed.
“Who was it?”
Cali hesitated.
“You don’t have to say if you don’t want to.”
“No, I want to tell you. I just…” he took a deep breath and centered himself. “It was Quin.”
“Quin?”
“Yeah. You know that first time when Quin and Mr. Rucker… I mean Cage came to Snow Tip Falls?”
I remembered the time. “Oh yeah.”
“Then.”