Page 81 of Break My Fall

“You’re so sexy, Maddie,” he told me as he stood before me, his eyes raking over my body with a hunger that only got me all hot and desperate once again.

“So are you,” I told him. Done waiting, I reached up onto my tiptoes and wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him as close as I could get him and then kissing him, hard and fast. His lips met mine just as eagerly and we became lost in each other once again. His hands found their way down my body until he had a firm hold on my ass. I was starting to suspect he may be an ‘ass’ man and I became worried he would find me lacking in that department. While I had been pretty curvy at one time in my life. I knew I was now pretty skinny.

He cupped my flat cheeks in his hands, kneading them, then he lifted me up until we were eye to eye, our kiss hotting up. I wrapped my legs tightly around his waist and fought to push back the insecurities I was feeling. He had told me he thought I was sexy and he clearly wanted me. I fought to cling to those facts, and not overthink anything else.

“Are you sure about this, sunshine, because I gotta be honest, we’re getting to the point of no return here. You’re driving me wild,” he admitted.

“I’m sure. I want this, Kai. I want you,” I told him confidently.

“I just want you to be sure. I don’t want you to regret this and I don’t want to do anything wrong and scare you.”

“Kai,” I stopped the playful kisses and looked deep into his eyes. “I have never, ever been scared of you, and that’s not going to change now. I trust you, so stop worrying and take me to bed,” I told him with a smile.

“God I love you,” he growled, then his lips were on mine again as he lowered me down to the middle of his bed. He kissed me a few times as he backed off, then he was stood before me with a playful smile on his face.

“You gonna strip for me, handsome?” I teased as I lay a hand behind my head and smirked at him.

“Gotta provide the lady with a show.” He waggled his eyebrows and made a show of lifting the hem of the t-shirt he wore, revealing his tightly packed abs just a little.

“You big tease!” I accused with a grin.

“Like what you see?” he taunted as he lifted his shirt a little higher.

“I think I need to see more before I decide that,” I flirted back.

He lifted his shirt over his head painfully slowly, little by little revealing more and more of his toned body and his washboard abs. His golden skin contrasted with the black hair that was smattered down the center of his chest, and I licked my lips as I imagined kissing my way down his body.

“Do you see enough to give an honest review yet, madam?” Kai asked playfully. He tossed his shirt behind him and ran a teasing hand down the center of his body, until his thumb tucked into the top of his sweatpants and relaxed there. I only just held in my groan of frustration that he was stopping there.

“I think I’ll reserve judgement until the end of the show,” I told him.

“Your prerogative,” he shrugged. He shucked off his sweats then and stood before me in just his close fitting black boxer shorts. His very obvious erection was enough to have me swallowing hard and blushing furiously. Edward’s was the only penis I had ever seen, and either he was abnormally small in size, or Kai was freaking huge. The idea that he wasn’t even going to fit inside of me, had me panicking. Was I going to be a huge disappointment? Did I even know what to do? Had what Edward and I done together in the early days, when I actually wanted to have sex with him, even been normal?

“Are you freaking out on me now, beautiful?” Kai asked, pulling me from my mini freak out. He sat on the foot of the bed and grabbed my hand in his. “It’s okay if you need to stop,” he told me.

“I just…I’m nervous. I don’t want to disappoint you,” I admitted shyly. I sat up and moved closer to him, resting my head on the top of his arm so he wouldn’t be able to look me in the eye. I was embarrassed I was freaking out when this had all been my idea.

“That’s not possible, Maddie,” He assured me as he wrapped his arm around me and pulled me into his side. “I’ve wanted you for so long. Nothing you could do would ever be a disappointment. Jesus, I’m about to go off in my pants like a damned horny kid just from what we’ve done so far,” he added with a chuckle.

“I…I’ve only ever been with Edward,” I confessed as I hid my face against his arm. “In the beginning, I guess it was okay, but the last few years…well, let’s just say I didn’t exactly want it, not that he ever took ‘no’ for an answer.”

“Fuck. I’m so fucking sorry, Maddie.” He pulled me even tighter against his side and hugged me harder.

“I just….I guess I’m trying to say it’s been a while,” I laughed flatly. “Maybe we could just take it slowly. You…you’re really big, Kai and seeing…that… it’s scared the crap out of me,” I blurted, then covered my face, mortified. Why did I say that?

“Hey,” Kai turned so he was facing me and pulled my hand away from my face. “We’re gonna go slow, okay? I’ll make sure you’re ready for me. I will never hurt you,” he told me firmly.

“I know that. Sorry. I’m sorry I’m freaking out on you.”

“I like it when you get all flustered. It’s cute,” he told me as he rose up onto his knees and straddled my legs. He closely moved upwards until I had no choice but to lay my head back against the pillows. He crawled higher until he was straddling my thighs, his arms beside my head and his body caging me in.

“Is this okay?” he asked.

“Yes,” I agreed with a nervous nod. He leaned in and kissed me chastely a few times. I reached my hand up to catch the back of his neck, stopping him from pulling back after the latest kiss, pulling him down and snaring him for a deeper kiss. The deeper the kiss got, the more my nerves and worry disappeared, until I was writhing with need for his touch, beneath him, my whole body once again alight with lust.

I was relieved when he broke the kiss and instead began to kiss his way down my neck, and behind my ear. His trail alternated between kisses and small nips of my skin, both of which only added to the burning need, which was getting to the point of combustion within me.

“More Kai! Please… I…I need…” I gasped, but I couldn’t decide what I needed. More kissing? More touching? I wanted it all and I wanted it right at that second.

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