Page 96 of Fixate

I should be happy.

I should be ecstatic that ‘N’ is the same guy I have been in love with all along—but I’m not.

Because I thought ‘N’ told me everything.

I thought I had this unbreakable bond with ‘N.’

I thought he would never lie to me.

Andhe lied to me about everything.

His friends. His job. His name.

I let out a small sob as I wipe a stray tear from my face.

I don’t know how to process this.

I can’t be mad at him for lying because I lied abouteverythingtoo.

But it still fucking hurts to know everything I thought I had with ‘N’ was one gigantic lie.

And it hurts even more to know that I could have had this relationship with Hoodoo so many years ago if only ‘N’ and I had made the leap into actually meeting in person.

This is so fucked up!

Letting out a heavy exhale, I swipe my nose with the back of my hand. All I wanted was to go on the internet to see if I could buy Hoodoo one of those heat packs with Velcro straps you can do up around your waist. I have one for period cramps, but I thought he could use it for his back, but instead, I foundthis.

Standing, I move to my clothes, pulling them on quickly.

I need to get out of here.

I need a second to think this over.

And I can’t do this with Hoodoo, ‘N,’ or whoever breathing down my neck.

I finish getting dressed and race out the door, making my way into the clubhouse. It’s not late at night, so most of the brothers and old ladies are still up and enjoying their evening.

They spot me and raise their brows.

“You okay, Maxxy?” Lani asks as I rush past her.

I don’t reply, heading straight for the door.

Hurricane steps in front of me, blocking my exit. “Stop right there. Where the fuck are you goin’ lookin’ like that?”

Sniffing, I place my hand on my hip. “Like what?”

“Like someone has upset you. You’re not gonna make a deal, are you?”

I weakly smile, slumping my shoulders. “Hoodoo pissed me off. I promise these tears aren’t caused by Selene.”

“Where’s Hoodoo now?” Hurricane asks.

“In the shower. I found something I didn’t like on his computer, so I’m taking a breather.”

Hurricane furrows his brows. “Somethin’ we should know about?”

I shake my head. “No, it involves me. Just something I wasn’t expecting. That’s all.”

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