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A sob releases from my throat as the paramedics rush in with a defibrillator, connecting it to my girl all while I hold our son in my arms. They shock her, but she's still flatlined. They try CPR again, then shock her a second time.

"We've got a pulse; let's go," one of them says as Doc helps load her onto a gurney while one of the paramedics comes over to me, wrapping a blanket around myself and my child, helping me up with Hawks help. It's only then that I notice the stodgy man is gone before they guide me to the ambulance taking us to the hospital.

As soon as we get there, Mel rushes over to me with tears in her eyes. She goes to take my boy, and I stand back, making her eyes soften. "I need to take him to the NICU to get him checked over Gunner; he's five weeks early, plus I want to hold my nephew." I swallow hard but nod, and she gently takes my son from my arms as Doc wheels my woman, who now has a fucking tube down her throat, through the double doors. I look back at Mel to see her looking down lovingly at my boy. "Well, hello there,handsome boy. I'm your Auntie Mellie, and I'm going to spoil you rotten."

Tears fall down my cheeks before Dagger grabs a hold of me by my neck, shoving my face into his shoulder as Mel places the baby into an incubator, hooking him up to some machines before wheeling him to the double doors. I got to take a step, but Dagger held me tighter while Mel turned to me, “I won't leave his side, I promise.” I nod before they disappear.

Axel and Dagger drag me to the waiting room when Ink rushes in with a tear-faced Sophie. She rushes over to me, grabbing my hand.

"Where is she? Where’s the baby?"

I can't speak, and I can't console her.

This is my fucking fault.

I feel fucking sick.

Is this how Dagger felt when he realized it was his fault that Mel was shot?

I look at him to see if he's looking at me with concern before Axel speaks up.

"The baby is doing okay; Mel's with him now, and Leah, she coded; she's lost a lot of blood; we're not sure how she is right now."

Sophie wails, and I squeeze my eyes shut just as she collapses in Ink's arms.

I move to the far wall and crouch down, leaning against it as my tears fall. Hawk follows me, staying by my side for hours until Doc comes in, covered in blood, and I swallow hard. I don't get up; he walks over to me, crouching down in front of me as the brothers, including my parents, who showed up two hours ago, crowd around him, but his eyes are focused on me.

"She lost a lot of blood and had some trauma to her stomach. Her placenta had detached, so we were lucky she managed to deliver the baby safely. She did hemorrhage, though, and her heart couldn't handle it. We did stop the bleeding, and now it's up to her when she'll wake." I let out a sob. "The baby is struggling a little." I shoot my head up. Please, fucking please, "He's on oxygen to help him; he had a traumatic birth, but he should be ok."

I slowly close my eyes and nod. "Can I see her, please, Doc?"

He nods. "Of course, Mel is staying with the baby."

I swallow and nod about to follow him out when Sophie speaks up, her brows furrowed. "Don't you think you should be with your baby? I mean, he hasn't got a name yet, has he?"

I shoot her a look and say, "No."

It's all I say before I follow the nurse to Leah's room.

I hear a lot of 'fucks' from the brothers when they realize I won't go near my baby without my woman, but I don't pay them attention.

I can't; I need Leah; our baby needs her.

Chapter 26

Leah

I slowly open my eyes.

Pain: so much pain.

I see Lucas holding onto my hand tightly while Sophie scowls at him. "He's your son, Gunner; he needs you!"

He doesn't look up from where his hand is tightly holding mine. "No, he needs his momma."

I go to open my mouth to tell him to get his ass to our child, but blackness takes hold.

I open my eyes again to hushed voices. Lucas is lying next to me, his head on my chest.

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