I sit down at the edge of the bed, gently touching her shoulder.
“I’m surprised you’re saying goodbye,” she mutters.
She must have woken up when I was in the bathroom, and I was too preoccupied with arguing with Henry that I missed her heartbeat changing slightly, showing she was awake. “I’m always saying goodbye.”
She turns to the side to look at me. “We agreed on it being just for one night,” she points out.
I nod. “It would still feel wrong to just leave you like you were a disposable object. You’re not.”
She blinks and looks a bit flustered. “You should really go before I retract my promise and fall for you.”
Her words almost make me jump up in fear.
“What made you so scared?” she finally asks into the silence. “It was just a joke.” She looks at me thoughtfully, but I’m not allowing her to dig deeper.
“A mind link just came through,” I lie skillfully before I nod at the bedside table. “There is the card to check out with. I’ve ordered breakfast for you, so take your time and order whatever else you want.”
She sits up a bit. “Bye, Anthony.”
“Bye…”
I try not to think of her when I leave the room. She didn’t look sad or angry. She is a lycan, too, and told me she is waiting for her mate and is not dating seriously for that reason. I make sure to only ever sleep with women who are just in for a short adventure. Against popular belief, not everyone wants to put a ring on your finger just because you are a future alpha.
When I leave the hotel, a feeling of emptiness fills me. It was gone momentarily when I was with my last flirt, but now that I’m on my own, it’s back with full force. I’m not going to be alone for long, though, as I try to tell myself, I’m going to meet with Henry and our friends soon.
My wolf is silent, too, like most of the time ever since we returned from the last mission. I’ve tried to call out to him. I’ve even begged, and I fucking never beg, but he keeps silent. It’s the reason I’ve started to bed strangers at night. The silence is deafening, and I need to numb the feeling.
It’s not my fault, I think bitterly.
“Just in time,” Henry’s voice interrupts my trail of thoughts. I didn’t even realize I had reached the coffeeshop.
“Good morning to you, too,” I tell him.
“It was good for me,” he deadpans. “But not for you. You look tired.”
“Well, I had a lot of action last night,” I lie, deciding to distract him.
It works because he rolls his eyes and turns to the coffeeshop. It’s winter, so we head inside to meet with the girls. They’re already waiting for us. Elise waves at us while Elodie nods, acknowledging our presence. Just like Henry and I, they are identical twins. Some of our friends think it would mean that we share a lot of similarities, but we don’t.
We were on the mission together and hated each other at first, but eventually, we all warmed up to one another and learned to get along.
Now, I even consider them as friends. I don’t call many people my friends. There are only a very few who I allow to let into my life, and they are two of them.
I approach Elise and hug her, making her laugh slightly. When I turn my attention to Elodie, I notice how Henry is already sitting in the space next to her. I wonder if I should hug her, too, but then decide against it. It’s a gut feeling.
Instead, I squeeze her shoulder.
“Good to see you,” I tell both of them.
Elise smiles brightly. “You too.”
“Did you celebrate Christmas well?” I ask them curiously.
Elodie nods. “Elise and I spent it here. We didn’t fly back to Paris for it.”
“Finn’s dad invited us to celebrate with them,” Elise beams. “Lord Elden.”
“Then I’m sure you had a blast,” Henry says earnestly.