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“Well, he doesn’t feel like a part of me; I don’t think he really ever has. I hear other people describe their connection with their wolves, and it doesn’t feel like that. He’s like this being inside of me that I constantly fight with. I’ve never been able to control my shift like other people can. Most of the time, it feels like he’s pushing his way out and forcing it. I can’t just command it,” I say.

She doesn’t say anything for a long time.

“Maybe you just need to work on becoming one entity, instead of fighting with each other,” she finally says.

I nod my head but don’t say anything. Doesn’t she realise that I have tried?

I don’t think anyone understands this feeling I have. My wolf and I are completely unsettled.

I don’t know if we will ever be one being.

That’s what scares me the most.

Chapter Eight

Hailey

Another day passes in our bubble, and I have gotten to know Isaac more than I ever thought possible.

When I saw him get lost in the memory of one of the last times his father had beat him, my heart broke for him.

No one should have to live that way.

When I think about how much he has overcome since his parents were killed, I can finally see how much he has changed and is finally allowed to be himself.

He spent a crazy amount of time taking care of me and making sure I was okay, and he also spent time working on this house for us to live in; even though he thought I might never forgive him.

It’s not hard to notice all the changes he has made. I believe that he truly is a different person.

When he needs to leave for the day for a meeting with Ryker, I decide to do something to show him that I’m starting to see a life together for us.

I head into town and look for things that will make the house feel more like a home.

I noticed that although his home was nice and had beautiful appliances, there wasn’t anything around to indicate anyone lived there. It looked like a show home.

I had stop to get some throw pillows and blankets for the living room. While there, I had seen some very comfortable ones that would be perfect for the theatre room. I knew I had to get them because I could just picture Isaac and I snuggled up using them. The thought brings a smile to my face.

I find random knickknacks and pick those up as well.

I grab my phone and look at the photo Isaac had gotten us to take together. I decide to get it blown up and framed. I hesitate to blow up the one I took while he was sleeping but, in the end, decided to do that one too.

I hope he likes everything I get for the house. While I’m out, I decide to also get some groceries and then some takeout for supper, since I’m exhausted from shopping all day.

When I get back, I see Isaac isn’t home yet. I had told Ryker to try and keep him busy a bit longer.

It may sound crazy, but I miss Isaac already. It has only been hours, but I like spending time with him.

I put the food in the oven, hoping that will keep it warm until I finish. I run around the house putting everything where it belongs.

I’m sweating by the time Isaac pulls up. He looks frustrated until he sees me, and a smile lights up his face.

“Baby, why are you so sweaty?” he asks with a laugh before wrapping his arms around me.

“I wanted to surprise you, so I had Ryker keep you busy,” I mumble into his chest.

“I was getting frustrated with my alpha for keeping me from you for so long when I only expected to be gone for an hour or two,” he says chuckling.

“Well, I wanted to do something to show you how much I’m starting to believe in us,” I say shyly.

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