Page 59 of Lordes

One thing I knew for sure, she was eager to get this money. She thought she would get it and her confidence would be exactly the trait that did her in.

I got home before Bria. She had practically moved in with me. She came home and made dinner. I ate it even though m stomach was in knots. I needed this to work. I needed to be free of Lauren and possibly murder charges. After we were done with dinner we sat at the kitchen table in silence. I didn’t know how long I’d been zoned out and then I heard her voice.

“Lord, what’s going on with you?” Bria sensed there was something wrong. We had been so close and so in tune since the moment we met that I couldn’t seem to conceal my emotions from her.

“Do you like me?” I asked her not sure where the question came from.

“Of course.” Her faced frowned but remained timelessly beautiful.

“I know you enjoy sex with me but I don’t know if you like me.”

“Yes, Lord. Yes, I like you. Where is this coming from?”

“Do you care about me? This feels weird. I have never asked a woman how she felt about me. I never really cared before now. I feel stupid asking the question but I don’t know. I can’t read your mind. I need something verbal.”

“I care about you I like you. I love you. I wanted to say it but I could tell there’s something going on with you. I thought that maybe you were going to break up with me.”

“I would never do that I love you. Something going on but it has nothing to do with you.”

“Why don’t you tell me so I can help you.”

“You can help me with this.”

“How do you know?”

“I know. Once I handled this problem things will be back to normal.”

“Is this about another woman?”

Fuck she was good. She had figured out where my troubles lay.

“No, no, not another woman, never.”

“So what’s so bad that you can share it with me?”

“It’s not bad. It’s just an issue I have to resolve. It should all be taken care row very soon.”

“Okay. So you’re not breaking up with me?”

“No. I don’t want to scare you but I’m obsessed with you.”

“Obsessed?”

“I am and all the wire appeared normal. I have a shit load of abandonment issues. I’m worried that if you decided to leave me for whatever reason I’m going to. I don’t know. Do something irrational. Are you afraid?”

“No I’m not afraid. Maybe I feel the same way.”

“You could never feel. How I feel. Sometimes I scare myself.”

“Your name is Lord. Being a good guy is in your DNA.”

“I’m glad you think so. No matter what you can’t leave me. Promise me.”

“I promise.”

I stood and reached out for her hand. She placed her hand in mine and followed while I pulled her to the staircase. Tomorrow was my day of reckoning. Today I was going to fuck the shit out of the woman I loved, the woman who loved me and promised to stay.

There was only one way I could make sure she stayed in my life forever. I would have to give her a baby. That was a something for another time. I meant what I said. I was obsessed with her. She didn’t know how much.

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