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“Damn, woman, I knew you were made for me,” Deacon says to me. He stands up and pulls my jeans and panties the rest of the way down my legs and when he finishes, he drops his jeans and his cock springs free. It is one amazingly beautiful, mean-looking cock. I don’t have anything to compare it to in my mind, but I am sure it’s length and girth would be impressive to anyone. I stare at it and I hear Deacon laugh.

“Do you like what you see, darlin’?” Deacon asks me.

“I might be a bit intimidated.” That makes him laugh harder.

“Don’t worry, I’ll make it all feel good for you. First, I want to taste the goods and then I will take you over and over all night long.” That makes me tingle in all the right places and I feel myself getting slick. I rub my legs together.

“Promises, promises,” I taunt the man and then I do something I never thought I would. I open my legs so Deacon can see just how wet I am for him. Deacon widens my leg further with his hands and runs a finger from my slit to my clit and then he makes good on all the promises he just made. I never did get that date or dinner that night.

Chapter Twenty-Three

DEACON

Nothing Stays Lost Forever

TWO YEARS LATER…

The last two years have been the best of my life. I know the day that Eve walked into my life was a turning point for me. It was a turning point for the entire Sons of Wrath MC.

Eve is an amazing woman. She came up with the idea of our club going legit after three of our brothers went down for ten years for possession charges. They got off lucky. They didn’t get a distribution charge which would have given them twenty years instead of the dime. She couldn’t stand the thought of any more of us going away so she came up with an alternative way for us to make good money without breaking many laws. Horn and I operate a bounty hunter business and we use our club brothers as our muscle. It’s a win-win situation. With the number of brothers we have, no one is gone for a very long time to pick up runners. The brothers with records still work in the garage which was expanded into a repo business. We aren’t rolling in the dough yet, but we are all out of danger of making prison our home. Eve feels better about the situation and we are mostly legit.

Eve had our daughter on a cold stormy night. We named her Stormy Eve Crowder. I signed the papers for her to get my last name. She is her mom’s mini-me, and she has my heart wrapped around her tiny fingers along with all the other brothers in the club. Life is good in our little family and this morning Eve told me she is going to give me another child. I know it’s time to put a ring on Eve’s finger and make her mine in the eyes of the law. It’s not like she isn’t mine already, but I want that paper to make it binding. I have decided that I won’t marry the woman that owns me until I come clean with her about her past, or what I know anyway.

I know I am taking the chance of her running on me, but I don’t think my woman would do that to me. I know she would never take our children away from their dad. Eve doesn’t have it in her or that’s what I am banking on anyway. Today is the day and I hope like hell that Eve understands that I was just protecting her. I know she is going to lose her shit first, but she’ll calm down and then I won’t ever need to worry about losing her ever again. I’ve been looking over my shoulder for far too long. It’s time to get on with our lives with no secrets between the two of us. The more I have come to love Eve, the more that I realize I have been selfish to keep her for myself. I will never give her or our family up and I couldn’t walk away if I tried, but it’s time for me to share her with the family she left behind. The things I have discovered the last two years about her dad and brothers is they love her, and I am sure they miss her. I can’t imagine one day in my life without the woman. We’ll all deal with Duke and Jules together.

We got the word last week that the Rival Sins MC is looking for one of theirs and there is a reward to go with the finder fee. It’s only a matter of time before someone traces her here. I wish I could say that this information had nothing to do with my decision to tell Eve now, but I’d be a damn liar. It scares the hell out of me that Eve may hate me for keeping this from her, but I know she loves me. I’m not a sentimental man and I’ve never believed before Eve there was this all- consuming love, but Eve was the game-changer for me. I believe love will win and that makes me the luckiest man. I know I don’t deserve it. I’ll never be the man that Eve deserves, but I will work my ass off every day to be the best I can for her.

I walk into the clubhouse and make a beeline to get a quick beer before I drive home and have this talk with Eve. I have been gone for four days on a bounty hunt. I didn’t want to go on this skip, but I had no choice. No one else was available so Garner and I had to do it. Our bounty hunting business has been busy since the day we opened the doors. This man and woman gave us a run for our money, but Garner and I caught them right before they went over the border. They’re in custody and the ride back gave me time to clear my head and put things in order so I can tell Eve about her past.

As soon as my eyes see Eve standing at the bar with her back to me, I know something is wrong. I see three men standing beside her that I don’t know. I then see the emblem on the back of one of their cuts and I know my time of avoiding this has come to an end and I have a lot of explaining to do. Who the hell let members of another club in our clubhouse? I look over my shoulder at Garner. He’s been behind me the whole time.

“Did you know about this?” I ask. He’s looking at his phone.

“They’ve been trying to reach us on the phone. Tracker, Sinister, and Bent have been here since last night and Eve is pissed. They told her what they knew,” Garner says so only I can hear. “Think about what you’re going to say before you say it,” Garner warns. I take big strides to get to my woman and she comes to me in my arms willingly. I kiss her with all I have. I hear someone clear their throat and I turn and look at the man.

“You the man my daughter has been shacking up with?” I look at the man’s cut and then to his face.

“I would watch your tone when you’re talking about my woman.” I take a step closer to Tracker. The man smiles at me.

“Boy, I would watch your mouth if I were you. Charlie is my daughter and I’ve been told she has amnesia and doesn’t remember but it’s nothing a test can’t prove. If she has no memory, then why would you claim her until she knows who she is? Sounds kind of shady to me.” I ignore the question. I turn and look at my woman.

“I need to talk to you alone. I’ll explain everything,” I tell Eve. Eve looks at me and I see her red swollen eyes. My woman has been crying, and I wasn’t here to hold her. I have let her down.

“If what your brothers have told us is true then why do you need to talk to Charlie? What do you need to talk about that we can’t hear?” Bent asks. I never look away from Eve.

“Let’s go to my room and we can talk.” Eve nods her head yes. “Where’s Stormy?”

“She’s napping in your room.” I see the monitor sitting on the bar and I reach for it. Eve stops me.

“I need an answer first. This man says he’s my dad, and that I had a gun with me in my car. You said the guys got all my stuff out of the car before they salvaged it. Did they find the gun?” I know Eve is confused and I don’t know what all she’s been told. I hesitate.

Chapter Twenty-Four

EVE

The Truth

Deacon hesitates to answer. I was hoping he wouldn’t. I may not have a memory, but I know when someone has lied to me and it’s written all over Deacon’s face. Garner has said nothing. I look at all Deacon’s brothers and not a one of them can look me in the eye and that includes Deacon. Have I been wrong to trust the man I love with my whole heart?

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