Page 38 of Blood Lust

I remember crying and screaming.

I remember falling, breaking.

I remember drowning.

I remember it all, and it is so clear now. No longer visions are spinning across my mind. These are mine now. My thoughts, my experiences. I am whole again.

Not yet whole.

My dark self can shove it for now.

“WREN! Miststück!”

Charlee?

Pain spreads across my cheek, and my head jerks to the side as my friend slaps me.

“Get yourself together,du blöde kuh. We have to go!”

She comes into focus, and I see the relief in her eyes as mine clear and bring me back to the here and now. She is swearing in German. Her accent is thicker than usual. I don’t think I’ve ever seen her this upset before.

“Come on,verdammt. I need to get you home!”

She pulls on my arm, and my feet move forward. She opens the door, looks to see if anyone is around, and drags me out of the apartment, deciding it is safe enough.

Out of Spencer’s apartment.

Her motorcycle is waiting for us.

Shoving a helmet on herself and me, she yanks me onto the bike behind her. I feel it roar to life beneath us, and we are off. We speed away from my destruction. From my revenge. From Spencer’s corpse.

I don’t remember much of the ride. I remember feeling lost, and empty.

It happened again. I killed. I ended a life.

Not just any life.

Hislife.

Spencer has been the focus of my existence for so long, and I snuffed him from the universe.

His poor mother…

Suddenly Oz’s arms are around me.

Surprising. I hadn’t even realized we’d returned.

He is comforting me, trying to take away the pain.

Erase what I did. He can’t erase this.

He can’t change the evil things I have done in this world. The people I’ve hurt. I wish he would stop trying. I wish he would scold me, yell at me, and end the monster he’s created. I hate him. I hate him as much as I love him.

I do love him.

I felt it the moment we met in the store. I was his, and he was mine. I don’t know why he pretended that day didn’t happen—unless?

How had he found me? Had he followed us? Is he the reason our car lost control? Is he the reason I died?

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