When I placed my hand on her hair, her shoulders relaxed, and I could hear a sigh of relief leaving her lips.
Life was good for her again, and that was a powerful moment right there.
It gave me a taste of a different kind of power. Something I’d never experienced before.
I’d brought peace and calm to someone’s life. Something I don’t remember happening before.
Usually, it’s the other way around.
The fear of death rams through people’s frames every time I touch them.
How she reacted to me was striking, and that stayed with me.
As soon as I put my hand on her, it was like I put a spell on her. She became a different person, and she was no longer haunted by her past.
Her hair tickled my touch as we sat there, bringing comfort to each other.
It made her feel all right, and she also made me feel all right.
Initially, I wanted to stop by and see if she was okay.
I had other stuff to do but couldn’t refuse her request. I gained a lot staying.
It gave me peace, which is a real treat these days.
I suspected she’d fallen asleep immediately, and I liked that I had that effect on her.
I also liked that she’d let herself be guided by her instincts.
After dealing with men who wanted to harm her, she thought I was the good guy. Her instinct was spot on. I wouldn’t harm a woman unless she was a criminal and needed to be sanctioned because she wronged me in some way.
Other than that, I’m not violent against women and can’t stand the men who do that.
It’s why I dislike pimps and traffickers. And anyone who forces themselves onto a woman.
A faint smile pulls at my lips.
Last night was something to be treasured for reasons I don’t quite understand.
Her falling asleep empowered me in so many ways. I never thought that would be possible.
For once, I was free from my sins and hopeful for redemption.
14
CARMINA
An hourbefore
“Jen.Jen… Listen. Things are fine. I’m okay. You don’t have to get crazy over it.”
“Are you sure?” she says at the other end of the phone line.
I put her on speaker and move my focus to my clothes.
This is my first night on the job, and aside from Jen being highly strung for what I think is nothing, today has been a fantastic day.
I filled out the paperwork, had lunch with my co–workers, participated in training, and even got a glimpse of the pool.