Page 136 of My Mafia King

I don’t know how life is outside my bubble, and I’m not interested in finding out.

It’s a mixed bag of good and bad like everything else, I suppose. Something I’d do if I had to.

But I know how my life is, and she doesn’t know much about that, especially how quickly it could end.

Sadly, this life is in my blood, and I have a hard time imagining myself living differently.

With that being said, it almost happened in the past with that Sicilian girl.

Maybe we needed something more for that to happen. Something we didn’t have back then.

We’ll never know.

But with Carmina, I do know. I’m more experienced. I know what to touch and what not to touch.

And I like this woman. I like her too much, I guess, but at some point, I’ll need to let her go so she can live her life, find someone nice, and just enjoy everything.

There’s no place in my life for someone like her.

And I feel bad because if there’s one thing I want for her, it’s her having a different life.

No more gangsters at her door.

No more fearing for her life.

No more desperation in her soul.

I want her to be safe.

But safety is relative, isn’t it?

And that will probably be the most difficult thing to accomplish once she’s no longer with me.

Should I try to get her ready?

I don’t know if I have the time to prepare her for that kind of life.

She’s already well on her way to becoming the strong person she needs to be. She’s just not old enough. But she’s courageous and has guts.

For now, I enjoy having her with me.

And it’s strange that the more I think about letting her go back to her life, the more I want her to stay with me, know more about her, and make memories with her so I can have something to think about when she won’t be here with me anymore.

Carmina Leto is a girl who stumbled into me. Fate played a role in all this, and I understand why it happened that way.

What I don’t know is how to make it less traumatic for her.

I may have power and a code of honor I abide by, but I’m far from perfect.

I know who I am and what my limits are.

I may be corrupt, but she is one thing I want to get right.

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CARMINA

A lot is happeningaround me.

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