Page 52 of De Vil

As she brings it up to my mouth, I think about being bad. Terrible to the point of spitting at her. I don't decline the food. I'm too hungry to refuse. With each bite she feeds me, I feel myself relaxing a little, but I'm scared. I've longed for someone to want to take care of me. To treat me as if I'm their little girl for so long. Love. That's all I want and I know this, but she destroyed it. How can I forgive her?

Once the plate is empty, she brings a straw toward me to drink the orange juice. I do it because yeah, I'm pretty sure she's going to put the gag back into my mouth shortly. "If you can act respectful, I will keep the gag out. One smartass remark and it goes back. Understand?"

"Yes ma'am," I whisper and look down at my knees. The robe has slipped between them, and one is showing. Coach notices and she smiles at me.

"Were you planning on doing a camera show today, Tia?"

It hadn't crossed my mind but the wicked side of me rushes forward. "Yup."

The smile on her face is gone. In its place is a frown that tells me I messed up. "I see. Well, then maybe we should give those wonderful people a show, Tia. With your face showing this time. That way they will know that a college girl who is barely eighteen is getting them off."

"No. I don't ever do a show without a mask." My heart races as she bends down and unlocks the cuff. I stand up and try to walk away but without my hands free, I'm having a horrible time keeping my balance.

Coach simply takes my neck in her hands and comes up behind me. "Oh, so now you want to run huh? Well, maybe this punishment will make you think twice, Tia."

She's back to not using princess or little one. I'm not sure how I feel about it. The confusion is real right now and I do know I hate it. The incessant want to be held by her is driving me crazy. We walk into the bedroom and I panic.

"No. Please, I don't want to be on the computer with my face showing. Please." I'm desperate to make her see that Roxy Dragon is my shield. That I don't do what others do on the computer. "I'm sorry, please. I'll be good. Mommy, please."

As we get to the bed, she sits me down on the edge and sizes me up. "Are you worried that someone will see your beautiful face, Tia?"

She runs a finger down my left cheek and traces my jawline until she reaches my chin. Using just that finger, she pushes my head up until our eyes meet. "That's Roxy Dragon on that page. It’s not Tia Falcon. Roxy is a mysterious woman who enjoys teasing and getting people off. I use Roxy to make money. That's it."

"But we can both agree you are a horny little thing, aren't you?"

Shame guts me and I take in a choppy breath. I should have known that this was about sex. "You... you want sex then?"

"You know I want you, Tia." She steps in between my legs and I look at her. There's no malice in her eyes, but I can't tell if she loves me. This is the most heartbroken I've ever been, and I don't know how to stress it to her.

"Yeah, sexually. I get it. Look, just... just do what you want." My mind is reeling from how much I want Mommy to take care of me.

"What the fuck?" Coach grips my chin in her hand and shakes my head. "You think this is just sex, Tia?"

Tears don't stream, they run down my face. "Yes. You... you made it clear. This isn't love and I was stupid for falling for you. I should have kept it what it was. Sex. I got it."

My words end in a sob and Coach releases me. She stands there, her mouth gaping wide open as she blinks at me. "You think I would go through all this trouble for some pussy?"

I flinch at her crudeness. "Yes. Why else would you be here? I'm an easy lay, remember?"

"Princess, I was trying to do the right thing. I was cruel, I know this. You are more than a fuck. Surely you know that."

"How could I? Everyone always abandons me, and you did too. You..." I can't even talk because I'm sobbing. "You crushed me. Just... just do whatever you want to me. I'm not going to fight."

Even I can hear the defeat in my voice. Coach takes the cuffs off my hands and helps me lie down on the bed. See? I knew she would take me. I'm nothing, to anyone. Fiddling with the robe's ties, I undo them. It's what she wants. Might as well give it to her.

"Put your robe back together, Tia," Coach demands as she takes off her shoes. She walks around to the other side of the bed and stops. With a sigh, she takes off her shirt and pants, crushing me even further. I never thought seeing someone undress for me would hurt.

I watch her get in the bed, in nothing but her boy shorts and sports bra. "Come here, princess." She pulls me to her and I don't resist. "Turn toward me."

How do I face her while knowing I'm nothing to her? Closing my eyes, I wish the tears away, but they don't stop coming. With a heavy heart and sigh, I turn to face her, feeling worse than when she wasn't here.

"This isn't about sex or what you do. It's about you and me. I'm not supposed to be here, Tia. You're my student and I almost lost my job. You almost got kicked out of school for what we were doing. But, I would face the same situation all over again for you. You are my everything."

Tia doesn't say a word for a long time. She cries into my chest as I hold her to me and that's fine. If she needs to cry, she can cry. I will not let her go. Not again. It was stupid to do so in the first place, but with her livelihood on the line, I couldn't be the reason for it.

"Let it all out, princess. It's going to be alright. Mommy's here." I rock us, and this seems to soothe her. I was going to dominate her into believing me. Hell, it's the only way I know how to get what I want. But one look at her just now and I know that Mommy has to be nice. She needs love and care and that's what she's going to get.

Rocking back and forth, I let her know I'm here. How did I mess this up so royally? "Princess, I'm going to tell you something, and I want you to listen, alright?"

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