Page 37 of Green Light

It shattered as it hit the floor, liquid hitting my foot.

I didn’t move. Didn’t react.

Just stared at Kai.

Kissing another man.

Moreover, he was a man I recognised…even if we’d never met.

Tristan Wells. Hollywood’s latest sweetheart and star of fuck even knew how many movies.

Hands trembling, I scrolled to read the caption.

When new places introduce you to new people. Forever grateful to have met you, Trist.

My heart fell right alongside the glass on the floor.

Arlo and Ruby were wrong. Kai hadn’t run away because he was grappling with feelings for me. Not when he’d replaced me so fast.

I couldn’t give up hope though. Not yet.

I typed a message to Kai.

Three words.

One question.

Is it true?

Chapter twelve

Kai

Isittrue?

I closed out of the message without replying. Exactly as I had every time I’d opened it over the past five days.

You are such a coward.

I’d thought walking away from Silas was the hardest thing I’d ever have to do.

But as we approached Heathrow Airport, I knew the worst was yet to come. Now, I had to face Silas. Face the consequences of my actions.

Knowing how much I’d hurt him by ignoring him all this time.

I thought it’d be better for both of us. A clean break so we could learn to live without being in the shadow of the other.

That hadn’t worked. Not for me, and from what Ruby told me, not for Silas. But still…I couldn’t go back there. That was the one thing I’d taken from this experience.

It had hurt to be apart from Silas. It had felt like a physical wound in my chest that ached day and night. Four months had felt like an eternity.

But it was nothing compared to loving him up close. To touching him and knowing he didn’t feel the same. To spending every waking minute with him and suffering because he would never feel the same.

No. I wasn’t going back to that. Thanks to the band, Silas would always be a part of my life.

But I was going to make sure he wasn’t all of it. This break had been brutal but for the best.

If I could keep him at a distance, maybe I could protect my heart better than before.

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