Page 86 of Green Light

Silas

Kai’seyeswidenedslightly.“Umm…what were you thinking?”

I grinned at him as I gripped his shaft firmer. “Hmm. Not sure. We could throw around some new lyrics. Perhaps play around with some of the melodies from earlier.”

Kai hissed as I thumbed his slit, marvelling at the stickiness there. “Or, you could fuck me.”

Kai’s cock throbbed as he gave a low moan. “Jesus.”

“Just Silas,” I quipped. “Now, where did we land on the fucking?”

He gave me an incredulous look. “Hang on, you’ve been into men for—what? Five minutes? And now you’re ready to go all the way? It’s a bit sudden.”

“Cheeky fucker. You should know that I like to throw myself into the deep end.” I took a deep breath as I met his gaze. “Besides, this doesn’t feel sudden. It feels like we’ve been building to this the whole time.”

I could tell Kai was wavering. I reached up to kiss him.

“Please,” I whispered brokenly against his lips. “I need this. I need to feel you inside me.”

Kai cursed under his breath. “I don’t have any supplies.”

I pulled back to scowl at him. “Since when are you ever unprepared?”

He rolled his eyes. “I don’t go fucking other men often, Si. Seems kinda wrong when I’m always pretending they’re you.”

“That shouldn’t make me as happy as it does.”

“I can get you off like this,” Kai offered, palming me through my jeans.

It was tempting. Especially with the skilled way he was massaging me through the denim. But it wasn’t enough. I didn’t know why it was so important, but right now, IneededKai inside me. I needed to know that he was mine in the most primal way.

I was burning. I needed Kai to douse the flames.

“Who packed that?” I gestured to the bag Kai had pulled the Maltesers from earlier.

“Arlo. Why?”

“Excellent.” I shoved Kai away and rummaged through it. Triumph leapt in my chest as my hand fell on a small tube. “I knew it.”

A second more, and I had the other item we needed. I held them up to Kai with a smirk. “He’s a determined little fucker.”

“We need to take him out to dinner,” Kai said, snatching the lube from my hand. His gaze flicked to the condom, and he swallowed. “We can use that if you’d feel more comfortable, but I’m negative. I haven’t been with anyone in over a year.”

My breath caught in my chest. Fuck, I wished I could say the same. Wished I’d waited for Kai.

Or, better yet, I wished I’d woken up and had this realisation years ago.

“I’m negative too,” I said. “I got tested after the end of the tour.”

His mouth popped open. “You…you haven’t been with anyone since…”

“Since we kissed?” I stepped up to him, unbuttoning his shirt. I didn’t want anything between us. “Of course not, Kai. You’ve possessed me. I can’t even think about being with anyone else. I was lost from the second you put your mouth on mine. Maybe even before that.”

“Silas.” It was a plea and a prayer all at once.

I shoved his shirt to the floor, ripping mine off after. The rest of our clothes fell alongside them as we were driven by an urgency we couldn’t ignore.

Then we were naked. My eyes trailed down Kai’s body, mapping the lines I’d seen a thousand times before but never actuallynoticed.I’d been too distracted in the shower.

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