Page 101 of Green Light

DinnerwithKai’sfamily…well,ourfamily, had gone great. No one had seemed surprised by our news. If anything, they were relieved.

The knowledge that even his parents had known about Kai’s feelings for me had a knot of guilt forming in my stomach. How was it that everyone had been able to see how he felt except for me?

I got why no one said anything, but fuck. I wish they had. Anything to take back the years of hurt I’d unwittingly bestowed on Kai. I couldn’t help thinking about all the girls I’d taken back to the hotel, a different one every night. How Kai would dip out early whenever I hit it off with someone in a club. How he’d always had an excuse if I invited him along with a girl I was dating.

Little by little, I’d been breaking his heart. And he might’ve said he was fine with it.

But I wasn’t sure I was.

“Okay, what’s wrong?”

“Nothing,” I replied, striding into the bedroom and kicking off my shoes. Like always, we were crashing at his parents’ house. It meant we could have a few beers at dinner without worrying about getting home. “Just tired.”

Kai’s nostrils flared like they had all those years ago in the woods, the day he’d learned the truth about my home life. “Don’t lie to me, Silas. We don’t do that anymore.”

Anymore.Because we both knew he’d been lying to me for a very long time.

I sat on the edge of the bed, leaning on my knees and letting my head drop forward. “I’m just…all up in my head.”

His knees brushed my hands as he stood before me. “About what.”

I groaned internally. “If I tell you, it’s just gonna piss you off.”

“Well, if youdon’ttell me, I’m gonna get pissed off anyway. Seems like you’re fucked either way.”

I sighed. He was right. There was no getting around it. “I’m frustrated with myself. For not seeing what everyone else obviously could.”

Kai’s fingers went under my chin, tilting my head up until I looked at him. My mouth went dry at the sight of him smouldering down at me. His dreads were loose, hanging around his head as his eyes sparked with heat. “Okay, I’m going to say this once, andonlyonce. You got that?”

Fuck, he was hot when he got bossy. “Maybe.”

He smirked like he knew the effect he was having on me. Pretty sure the bulge in my trousers was giving me away. “You are not to blame for things that happened in the past. It has no bearing on us now. Or maybe it does. Without those things happening, maybe we wouldn’t have ended up here right now.”

“I still wish I’d figured things out earlier.”

“But maybe if you had, it might not have worked,” Kai said firmly. “We were young and stupid back then. Maybe this is the way it had to happen. Maybe we needed to bereadybefore taking this step.”

Kai’s words healed an aching wound in my heart. He was right. It was time to stop living in the past and start living in the present. My attention snagged on the sizable bulge level with my face, my mind helpfully supplying me with an idea on how we could demonstrateliving in the present.“I’m so ready now.”

He went to step back, but I grabbed him around the back of his thighs. “Where do you think you’re going?”

A small wrinkle appeared between Kai’s brows. “Umm…to get ready for bed?”

“But I said I’m ready.” I grinned mischievously as I slid my hands up to squeeze his arse. “And look, here I am at theperfectheight to suck you off.”

Kai groaned. “That’s not even slightly what we were talking about.”

“I know…but now that’s done and dusted, I was thinking we could do other things. More fun things.”

“You were thinking about that while we were having a serious discussion?”

“It’s called multitasking, Kai.” I pulled on his trousers, my mouth watering as his hard cock was revealed. “Besides, it’s your fault for dangling that weapon in my face.”

Kai laughed. “You’re the one who got it out.”

My hand glided along his shaft, going underneath to cup his balls. “Because getting it out leads to fun things. I’m just making up for lost time here.”

“Fuuck,” Kai said as I rolled my hand over his balls. “Wait, we’re at my parents’ house.”

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