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“I want you.”

“I want you, too.”

“Not like that. I don’t just mean sex,” Silver said. “I want you to be with me, and I want to be with you. You’d be my primary partner.”

“I don’t know what that means, Silver.”

“To me, it means I’m not dating anyone else. I’m not in a relationship with anyone else. You know how in some poly relationships, people have multiple partners, boyfriends, girlfriends?”

“I guess,” Honor said.

“Not me. I don’t want that. I want one girlfriend.”

“Okay. Well, me too.”

“Well, there’s step one done.” Silver nodded. “I don’t know if you want that to be me just yet, and I understand that. This is new to both of us in different ways. We can call it dating for now, but I only want to actually date you.”

Honor nodded.

“Do you want to date someone else?” Silver checked.

Honor shook her head.

“Not even the Christina woman you told me texted you again this week for dinner?”

“I told her no,” Honor said.

“And that’s what you wanted?”

“Yes,” she replied. “She might be a friend later, but I don’t want to date her. Can I be really honest with you, though?”

“Always,” Silver said.

“I did want to sleep with her.”

“Oh. But you don’t want to date her?”

“No, I just had this image of touching her, and it felt really good to think of that. She’s a beautiful woman, and I am attracted to her, but it’s like what you said about some of the women you’ve dated. When I thought about telling her that I wanted to still sleep with you while being exclusive with her, I knew she wouldn’t be into that.”

“But you wanted to fuck her?”

Honor nodded and said, “When I woke you up from your nap, I was picturing it.”

“You were picturing her while you were touching me?”

“Is that bad?”

“Fuck. Is that why you came on top of me like that?” Silver whispered.

Honor nodded, and Silver shook her head with awe in her expression.

“Nothing bad about that, Honor Wrenley. It makes what you did even hotter, babe.”

“It does?”

“Honor, I want you to be whoever you are. I want you to be comfortable talking to me about anything, and I don’t just mean sex. You can always tell me about that, and you should. I should, too. That’s important for this to work. And we’ll have to add some of that to the rules, but I also want to hear about how work was for you today and how dinner was with your sister. If I’m being honest, I wanted to come to your apartment this week and take care of you.”

“What? Why?” Honor laughed a little.

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