Page 63 of Voyeur

“I thought so at first, yeah. When I saw her, she had that look about her; like she was out exploring but hadn’t taken the leap to join our world, so to speak. But it’s not just that. There’s more to it.”

“Like what?”

“You know how I told you I bought that double-sided dildo a while ago?”

“So you could use it with us, yeah. But you never brought it out.”

“I got to thinking that it would be too intimate. Weird, because I’ve had my mouth everywhere on your body and on Brandi’s, too, but that’s like connecting us in a different way.”

“I get it.” Devin shrugged a shoulder.

“I’ve never used it with anyone because of that. Then, last night, I pulled it out, and I asked Honor to use it with me.”

“Shit. You fucked her with it?”

“No, she fucked me with it,” Silver revealed. “Really, she didn’t fuck me. It wasn’t fucking.”

“Oh,” Devin let out with a knowing smile. “I get it. You actually like her. For real.”

“Yes,” Silver admitted.

“Well, what’s the problem? She obviously likes you, too, or she wouldn’t keep coming back for more, right?”

“That’s the thing: I don’t know,” Silver stated.

“Is she a relationship woman, and you’re worried?”

“She is, yes. And I am definitely not the kind of woman she thought she’d be in one of those with. This morning, though, I sort of tested her. It was wrong, but I did it anyway.”

“This morning? You mean, she stayed over?”

“She did, yes. And, technically, one night before that, too. We didn’t fuck that night, though; we just slept.”

“Silver, you let a woman sleep in your bed, and you didn’t sleep with her?”

“I know…” Silver dropped her head back to the futon. “I hardly do that when I’m dating a woman, which is why I don’t date often.”

“Are you two dating?”

“We haven’t talked about it.”

“Wait. You said you tested her. What did you do, Silver?”

“It seemed like something was off. She didn’t want sex. And I mean that like the soft, making love kind. She wanted to fuck, you know?”

“Okay. That’s off for her?”

“It felt like she wasn’t letting me be… gentle with her. Anyway, she was leaving, and I asked her for a kiss.”

“A goodbye kiss?”

“Yes.”

“You asked a woman you aren’t dating for a goodbye kiss? Did you want it to lead to something else?”

“No, I knew she needed to get to work.”

“Okay. Well, did she kiss you?”

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