Page 54 of Calculated Chaos

“Loved it. I don’t know why, but sweet boy from your lips is the highest praise.”

Axel smiles, sauntering over to me with the swagger he used in the club. “It feels good to say it, even though I’m well aware you’re a grown-ass man.”

“I made coffee,” I say, knowing my cheeks are bright red.

“I’ll get it. You stay here.”

Axel walks to the kitchen, and I twist around on the couch to stare at his ass. My needy begging from last night returns to me now, sending a wave of desire through my entire body. I want him again, and I want him now.

Axel returns carrying two mugs of coffee. As he settles next to me, I can tell from his curious expression that he has a question.

“What’s on your mind, Ax?”

“Weird question, but what was it like when… um, well, when I came in your mouth.”

Just hearing the words causes my dick to twitch again. “Honestly, it happened so fast and I was just turned on that it was happening. It wasn’t gross, if that’s what you’re asking.”

His forehead creases. “Britt always said it was gross. Couple of other women I dated too.”

“Maybe they just didn’t like it. Rebecca refused to even try, but I dated another girl that loved it.” I put my hand on his thigh. “I loved it, but I think it’s because I wanted to please you so badly. I wanted you to feel as good as I did. I still want that.”

Axel’s eyes heat as he searches my face. “I’m not gonna lie, you looked so gorgeous on your knees with my cock in your mouth. It was like… I don’t know how to say it, but like you were made for me.”

“Maybe I was, Ax. We’ve always had a strong connection. It’s not too shocking that we ended up here, is it?”

“No.” He sets his mug down, then takes mine from me and does the same. “I want to do it to you. I want to feel your cock on my tongue, I want to be inside you, and I want you to fuck me too. I want to do everything there is to do with each other.”

I nod, scooting closer. “I do too.”

Axel cups my face. “I’m not afraid to say that I think everything I was ever searching for and longing for was right here all along.”

“You’re not scared anymore?”

He chuckles. “Hell yeah, I am, but I’m doing it anyway. I believe in us enough to work through it if things change.”

“I do too.”

Axel presses a kiss to my lips. “Good,” he whispers before pulling back. “Let’s enjoy our coffee then go to a museum.”

I narrow my eyes at him. “A museum? Why?”

“I owe you one. Besides, I just want to make you happy, Holl. It’s all I’ve ever wanted.”

“You’re too good for this world, Ax.”

“Nah. I’m just a guy who knows what a gift you are as a friend and a lover. We’ve earned this happiness. Both of us.”

“You’re right.”

“Now be a good boy and finish your coffee so I can wash your gorgeous body.”

I shake my head, grinning. “I promise to be very good.”

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After rushing through coffee, my excitement builds as we walk down the hallway together. Axel holds my hand like he’s afraid I’m going to get lost or run away, but there’s no chance of that happening. Granted, I’m still trying to make sense of all this, but for once in my life, I’ve made a change that feels right. I don’t want to run from it.

Axel releases my hand, turning his attention to the shower. I doubt it’s big enough for both of us to fit comfortably, but that just means we can get close. I lean on the vanity, watching from behind how his muscles ripple under his skin. I’ve always been an ass guy, and Axel has booty for days.

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