Oh, I know that. Dana wouldn’t keep it a secret. At least I don’t think she would. Even if she didn’t give us all the details, I’d hope she’d let us know that something was finally (finally!) happening between the two of them. “Does that mean you don’t wish there was something happening?”
Drew’s eyes connect with mine; there’s the smallest tic in his cheek as if he’s trying to decide whether he’s going to tell the truth or bend it just a little. “Gillian–”
“If you don’t answer, Drew, that’s as good as an answer. You know what I mean?”
He rests his forearms on his knees and sighs. “You promise not to say anything?”
Jackpot. “Promise.” Too bad he doesn’t know my fingers are crossed behind my back. No way I’m not telling at least one of my sisters.
“I can see your fingers crossed behind your back, Gillian.”
Dammit.
Drew laughs. “Remember. Not slick.”
I drop my hand and sigh. “Okay. Fine. I won’t tell anyone. Promise. Capital ‘p’.”
He frowns.
“It’s something Stella and I do. If it’s a promise with a capital ‘p’, it’s a big one.”
“You two are so cute together. A dynamic duo.”
I smile, though my heart sinks. Yes, we’re a dynamic duo. But shouldn’t we be a terrific trio? Mom, baby, and dad? I shake it off. “Anyway…”
“Okay, well ,as long as you’re not telling…” Drew trails off. “I’m interested in Dana.”
I clap my hands together and squeal.
“But! You know, it’s never going to happen.”
I gape at him. “How can you say that like it’s a fact?”
“Because she’s got her shit and I’ve got mine and–”
“That’s the whole point of being in a relationship with other people. Dealing with each other’s shit.”
Drew laughs and nods. “Maybe, but…we’re too good of friends. I don’t want to spoil that.”
My heart sinks. I remember when I was too good of friends with someone, and I didn’t want to spoil what we had between us. Axel and me. And yet, one drink too many, one shy kiss, and bam. Seven years of disdain. Friendship ruined by horny brain cells. It’s not worth it in the end. “I get it. It can ruin everything.”
“Right? Exactly. You get it.”
Do I ever.
“I can’t lose her because I wanted to risk making our relationship anything more than it already is. You know?”
It breaks my heart because I totally understand where he’s coming from. And I also know just how perfect they’d be together. But being inside something like that is terrifying. You can never believe a person on the outside saying that everything logistically adds up and that you’d be a perfect pair. You have to feel it.
“Plus, I don’t think she even notices me.”
“What?! That’s crazy.”
“I mean, she doesn’t really notice when I flirt or–”
I scoff. “That’s just Dana. She’s always in her own head.”
“I wouldn’t say that. She’s just focused on the things that matter most to her. Her family, her job.”