Page 81 of Fabulous Filthy Friend

I close my eyes and release a breath that comes from deep within my chest, a release of all the frustration that’s built from not being able to say those words for so damn long. “I don’t know when it happened. It just kind of did.”

Every second. Every minute. Every hour. Every day we spent together just…made me love her. I can’t even remember a time I didn’t, though, in the beginning, it definitely wasn’t so intense. It was more like an attraction I kept at bay. But it grew into something so much deeper.

“How come you never said anything?”

I open my eyes and meet hers. “Because I never thought you’d want anything like this. I thought you were a good girl who wanted a nice, wholesome guy who would make love to you every night, not someone who will brutally fuck your brains out and whisper filth into your ear.”

She blushes even after everything we just did together.

So fucking cute.

“I do want that, too, Flynn.”

“So do I.” I want to spend hours making love to her and dragging it out. I want to worship her in every way imaginable. “There’s a time and place for everything. But I was terrified if I told you how I felt, I would lose you as a best friend, and I wasn’t going to risk that. I care too much about you, even if we could never be together. Plus, I never thought you were attracted to me like that.”

A grin tugs at her lips, and she lightly traces her nails across my pecs. “I would have to be blind not to notice you and think you are attractive, Flynn. That was never the issue.”

“Then what was?”

She chews on her lip for a second, considering her answer. “Honestly? I thought you were a mama’s boy who would be just as boring in bed as the rest of the guys I have dated lately.”

I bark out a laugh and drop my forehead against hers. “Do you still think I’m a boring mama’s boy?”

Her lips press to mine in answer. “Definitely not boring, but you are kind of a mama’s boy. That’s not necessarily a bad thing, though. I love the relationship you have with your mother. It shows what a truly good guy you really are.”

The fact that she doesn’t think it’s weird and isn’t jealous about the time I spend with Mom only makes me love her more.

A frown tugs at her lips. “But I guess there are a lot of things I don’t know about you.”

The distress in her voice has me pulling away and taking her face in my hands. “Why do you think that?”

“Because how could we have been best friends for five years and I not know about this…about the website…about…I don’t know…all of this?”

“Rachel, you know me better than anyone on this planet. Like I said, I only kept this from you because I never thought you’d understand. I thought it would send you running for the hills as my friend, let alone if I tried to pursue you for more. And this hasn’t been going on the whole time. Only the last year or so. It was something that just kind of happened when the market crashed. It was never planned. Never something I thought about doing before.”

She shakes her head. “We were so stupid and maybe a little blind.”

“Maybe.”

“Alicia kept insisting I was secretly in love with you and that was the reason all my relationships were failing.”

I chuckle and shake my head as I move over her. She drapes her arms around my neck, and I press her legs open with my knees and settle between them, bracing myself on my elbows over her. “Was that why?”

She worries her bottom lip between her teeth. “Honestly, I don’t know. It wasn’t conscious. But looking back, I was comparing them to you. Which was part of the problem.”

“What do you mean?”

“I think I was looking for another you. Someone I would have the same rapport and easy laughter with, someone I would feel the same around—relaxed and happy and carefree. Someone who can always make me feel better when I am upset about something…” She trails off before her eyes widen. “Jesus, I was looking for you.”

“I’ve been right here all the time.”

She flashes me a grin, and her hand slips down between us to wrap around my cock. “I know, I just never thought you would be so…dirty.”

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RACHEL

Flynn lets out a laugh that sends his entire body shaking against mine. His hard dick in my hand brushes against my overly sensitive clit.

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