Page 54 of Fabulous Filthy Friend

Good in a way it shouldn’t and hasn’t before.

Good in a way that it can’t be because of what I want out of a partner.

What he can never provide.

I attribute it to the weird sexual charge I’ve felt since getting HRD4U’s message this morning. One I apparently need to do something about, because my fingers fly over the keyboard to write a response to him before I can even second guess it.

INEEDSOMED

Wow! I wasn’t expecting to get a message from you. I hope you didn’t think I was trying to hit on you with my comments. I really wasn’t. I was being serious. I have such a hard time finding men in this city who aren’t mama’s boys and aren’t anemic in bed. I know you won’t ever get involved with a viewer, and I swear I wasn’t suggesting it, but maybe you know where I would find a guy like you in SoCal?

I hit send before I can stop myself. It was probably a stupid thing to do. I should have let it be and gone back to being a gawker, not a talker.

A few minutes later, the message icon blinks.

He wrote me back!

HRD4U

You’re brutally honest and direct. I like that. Any woman who can say exactly what she wants is a good thing. The chances of unspoken things becoming hang-ups are slim. But in terms of finding a guy, I don’t know. I actually live in SoCal, too, but I don’t exactly talk like this to my friends or other guys, so I don’t really know what they’re like inside the bedroom.

I freeze, staring at his words.

He lives here?

INEEDSOMED

Wow. It’s definitely a small world. And I kind of figured you wouldn’t be able to send me in the right direction. A guy like you is one in a million and almost too good to be true.

HRD4U

Am I? It doesn’t always feel that way.

His self-doubt tugs at something deep inside me—the very same feeling I’ve been dealing with. It’s hard to think you’re worth it all when no one treats you that way. And it always seems I open my heart to people who won’t—except Flynn, of course.

INEEDSOMED

Everything I’ve ever seen tells me you are. But maybe I’m just jaded because of the lack of good men.

HRD4U

Keep looking. The small world has lots of people in it. I have faith your prince will come eventually.

It’s nice that someone has that faith because I’m not so sure I have it anymore.

INEEDSOMED

ha ha ha :-) It’s not a prince I want. That’s the problem.

HRD4U

Most girls want the fairytale ending and a prince on a white horse in shining armor. It’s so…refreshing to chat with someone so honest. Most of the women who view my feeds would immediately jump on the chance to send me nudes and beg me for something—internet sex or a real meet up. I delete hundreds of PMs every day doing just that. It’s been nice talking with you. Hope you enjoy my show tonight.

INEEDSOMED

;) Don’t worry. I will.

With a huff, I fall back against the headboard and release a heavy sigh.

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