Page 98 of Collision

I pulled an unopened box of condoms out of the drawer, and silently thanked Shelly for including it in my Christmas gift as I tore into it. I ripped one of the squares off the strip, and tossed the wrapper onto the floor as I climbed on top of Chase. I rolled the condom onto him, and with our eyes fixated on each other, I guided him inside of me.

We let out simultaneous sighs as our bodies converged. All of our fears and pent up frustrations were released in that moment. For so long, we had shared in each other’s pain, and now we could finally share in each other’s ecstasy.

We moved in sync, as if we had already been together like this many times before. His hands gripped my waist, pushing and pulling me back and forth onto him. Feeling his impressive presence inside me, I arched my back and held onto his thighs, wanting him deeper with every thrust. Sweat began to form on my skin.

“You look fucking incredible up there.”

“You should see my view.” I caressed his beautiful face and ran my fingers down his chest, onto his cubed abdominals that stretched and contracted each time we merged. Every muscle in his body rippled with every movement he made. He was a god.

Being on top of Chase Brooks was something I could not have imagined. I felt like an untamed horse running through the wild; like I had broken free of the reins that were holding me back for so long. With him, I could let myself go. I had never felt this with anyone before – to look into his eyes with complete transparency and vulnerability.

The surge of passion between us began to heighten, and my hips began to move faster. I reached for the headboard on my bed for leverage. I tried to prolong it, wanting this moment to last as long as it possibly could, but it felt too good not to give in.

“Oh my God… Chase…” I closed my eyes as my whole body shook. Our rocking slowed while Chase sat up, still inside of me, and gently kissed around my neck and chest. Every part of me tingled, all the way down to my toes, while I tried to catch my breath.

Suddenly, he flipped me onto my back and took over control on top of me. I wrapped my arms and legs around his body and drew him in as close as I could. I outlined his ear with my tongue, continuing down to his neck. Every sense was awakened, and I wanted to see, smell, touch and taste him all at the same time. His groans got louder each time he plunged into me. Reaching down to grab two handfuls of his ass, I drove him deeper inside.

“You feel so fucking good,” he breathed.

Our pace got faster, until our bodies were dripping with sweat. He closed his eyes and gripped my thigh tighter as he called out with his final thrust. Our movements slowed to a stop, and we laid panting wrapped up in each other’s arms.

“That was unbelievable,” he said, out of breath.

“Why haven’t we been doing this all along?”

He grinned. “It was worth the wait.” Leaning in for a kiss, he stroked my cheek with his thumb. “I love you more than you will ever know, Merritt.”

“I love you, Chase. So, so much.”

I wanted to stay there in bed with him, though I knew time was ticking. I wiped my forehead with the back of my hand. “I think I need another shower.”

“If you wait until tonight, maybe I’ll join you.” He winked and made his way back into the bathroom. I watched him walk away, thoroughly enjoying the view of his rear end strutting out of sight.

I didn’t say it, but I knew he would not be up for much after his father’s funeral. It seemed like all of the wonderful moments spent in our own little world ended with us crashing back down to reality on Earth. I glanced at the clock, and rolled out of bed.

Twenty minutes later, we met the rest of the Brooks family members outside. Beverly had opted to forgo the limousine, so we were waiting to pile into her crossover while she locked up the house.

“Where’s your tie?” Chase questioned Tanner.

“He couldn’t figure out how to tie it right,” Khloe answered quietly.

“So you’re just never going to wear a tie because dad’s not here to do it for you?”

Tanner ignored him, looking off into the distance.

“You couldn’t YouTube it or something?” Chase clearly was not letting this go.

“I did, asshole! Why don’t you get the fuck off my back?” Tanner fired back.

“You need to look presentable today!” I had never heard Chase yell before.

“Why? Dad’s not here to see me. What the fuck does it matter?”

“Hey! Stop this right now!” Beverly raised her voice at her sons as she scurried down the driveway towards them. “I will have none of that today, do you hear me?”

They both put their heads down. I took Khloe’s hand and started walking towards Beverly’s car. The ride to the service was quiet after that. Tanner sat in the front with Beverly, silently staring out the window. Even Khloe did not have any questions to ask. The service was being held at a local park. Since Tim’s remains were cremated, there would be no headstone at a cemetery. Guests were invited to gather today to remember his life, and the family would take his ashes home when it was over. It made me think about how I had not been to my dad’s burial site; I wondered if he minded. I always thought it was such a creepy place, filled with dead bodies buried into holes in the ground. People went there, pretending to communicate with their loved ones – but their loved ones didn’t hear them; it was only a comfort for the people who were left behind.

Once we arrived, I sat and observed. I watched as Chase held my hand like it was a life preserver keeping him afloat. I watched Tanner’s expressionless face, as if he was carved out of stone. I watched as Khloe sat with her tiny hands folded in her lap, like she was in school; her dark dress was such a contrast against her golden locks. I watched as Beverly kept her composure, only dabbing her eyes at the very end. I watched people kiss their fingers and touch the urn before they left, many of whom were Tim’s friends and customers from the shop, to say their final goodbyes.

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