Page 48 of Beautiful Envy

PB: Yes! Our brotherhood has a Queen.

PB: How is she? Did she survive?

PB: Who gave in first?

PB: I need the details.

CB: How’s Darcie?

Lifting the camera, I took a picture of her sleeping in my arms, her face serene.

Me: *pic attached*

Me: We’ll be back soon. I don’t want to wake her yet.

PB: God, she’s so fucking gorgeous.

CB: She looks peaceful. I guess that means, good job?

Me: You can ask her yourself. I’m not gossiping.

PB: You’re no fun. Hurry back.

CB: I’m happy for you, Waylon.

Me: Thanks, brothers. Sorry, it took me so long to believe.

Putting my phone back, I bent down, dropping a kiss on her forehead. Darcie stirred, and my whole world shifted, aligning with her as my center. I meant what I’d said to her. Once I had a taste, there would be no way I could walk away.

She was it for me. Whoever was chasing her just gained three protectors that they’d have to go through first.

Diary #14

Dear Dad,

I got a new bike the other day. It needs to be fixed up, but I can see the beautiful beast she’ll be when it’s done. I feel alive again in a way I haven’t felt since I left Mississippi.

I’m not as angry anymore. Mostly, just sad.

I’m sad that there wasn’t another way for us to continue. I’m sad I had to leave my whole life and family behind. But mostly, I’m sad that you haven’t gotten to be part of my life.

I hate the control Agonizer has and how he can get away with his shit.

I knew I had to run in the beginning because I was young and unprepared to lead. I needed these years to grow into myself as a person and believe in my strength.

And I do now. I’m strong and fierce, just like you taught me to be.

Recently, my life has grown to include three men. I doubt any father around wants to hear about their daughter and three men, but too bad. The price you pay for making me leave, I suppose.

They make me happy. They make me feel safe and show me how strong I’ve become.

But mainly, they’ve shown me love.

I’m tired of running. I’m tired of men like Agonizer deciding my fate.

Maybe it’s time to push back.

I’m not ready to risk what I have yet, but I know there will come a day when I have to. And I hope you’re there to see it.

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