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“I’m on birth control and I’m clean.” I pant.

“I’m clean too.” His eyes lock with mine.

“Okay.” I lick my lips. He spreads my legs further apart and lines his cock up with my entrance, and in one swift movement, he enters me. I gasp at the feeling of him entering me. My back arches off the bed as he slowly pulls out and then thrusts back in.

The room is filled with our moans and our heavy breathing. Our bodies move as one. My nails dig into his back as he thrusts in and out of me. His hand moves to wrap around my throat, at first I don’t know how to react. A part of me is excited by it but another part of me remembers when Jett did it to me just a few weeks ago. I decide to let it happen just to see if I like it.

Chapter Twenty

Lio

The second my hand wraps around her throat I see hesitation in her eyes, but she doesn’t pull my hand away. Instead, she licks her bottom lip and her eyes slowly lift to mine, she gives me a small nod and I know that it’s okay to keep my hand there. I guess maybe we should have talked about our likes and dislikes before we started having sex but I guess most couples go through this, learning what works and what doesn’t.

I can feel her tighten around me, her breathing picking up as she arches her back. I bring my other hand between us, my thumb finding her swollen clit. She moans loudly as she throws her head back in pleasure.

“Don’t stop.” She whimpers, I keep doing exactly what I’m doing and watch her as she comes apart.

“I love you.” I say breathlessly as I come apart right after her.

“I love you.” She sucks in a deep breath.

I pull out of her, collapsing on top of her. She runs her hands up and down my back, breathing heavy. After a minute or so I roll off of her and turn to face her, a small smile spreads across her face.

“What?” I laugh.

“Nothing,” She shakes her head.

“Tell me.” I poke her side, making her laugh.

“I feel like I’m dreaming.” She bites her bottom lip.

“How so?” I push a strand of hair behind her ear.

“When I’m with you I’m happy and for so long I never thought I would be happy again. I was in such a dark place for so long that I never saw the light at the end you know? I thought that he was going to be the one I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with. I thought he was the love of my life. But he wasn’t. And I’m angry at myself for wasting so much time with him, for not seeing how much better life could be. I’m angry that I let him control me for so long and for what? So he could own my heart just to shatter it without a second thought?” She wipes away a tear.

“He may have borrowed your heart but I intend to keep it.” I cup her face, kissing her hard.

“Promise?” She asks as she pulls away.

“I’ve always had it. He may be your first love, but I intend to be your last.” I kiss her forehead.

“That’s not true.” She whispers.

“What do you mean?” I sit back, tilting her chin to look at me.

“He wasn’t my first love.” She shakes his head.

“There was someone else?” I clear my throat.

“Yes. You. It’s always been you Lio. Since we were kids. I think I’ve loved since the first day we met.” Tears are in her eyes.

“I wish I could have spent the last seven years showing you how you deserve to be loved. I wish it was me who got to spend those years with you.” I shake my head, sighing.

“So do I. But we can’t change the past. And you know what they say, everything happens for a reason. We can’t change the last seven years but we can change the next seven and all of them after that. I want you Lio, more than I think I’ve wanted anything in my entire life. I want to be yours, I want us to be together. I want it all and I want it all with you. I didn’t think I was ready because honestly I was scared, I was scared of falling again and getting hurt. My heart can’t take it. So I need to know if you are all in? If you want this as badly as I do?” She swallows hard, tears streaming down her face.

“I fell in love with you when we were kids but my love has grown for you every single day. It was an honor to be by your side for most of your life, to be able to watch you grow into the person you are today. I know the last few years haven’t been easy but that doesn’t mean I ever stopped loving you. And being able to be with you now is a dream come true. I truly deeply mean that. It was always supposed to be us, we were always supposed to end up together. I will do everything in my power to prove to you just how much I love you every single day if you need me to. I will gladly prove to you that I am worthy of your love. I can’t promise it will be perfect but I promise that you will have all of me, you will always have my love no matter what. There will not be a day that goes by that you will not feel the love you deserve. I promise I will prove to you that you are everything to me. I am so painfully and tragically in love with you silly girl.” I cup her face, wiping away her tears with my thumbs. She laughs before nodding and wrapping her arms around me.

“Thank you, Lio.” She whispers into my neck.

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