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She did as I told her, panting while she continued to fuck herself on her fingers.

“Are you imagining my hands on you? Touching you the way you’re touching yourself?”

“Gil,” she whimpered.

I tried not to grind myself against the back of the sofa at the sound of my name on her lips, despite the fact I was aroused. It was painful, this need inside me to do things to her soft little body. Things like pin her down and give in to my baser instincts. It wasn’t that I’d never desired sex, but I wanted to know what it was like to drive into someone I was actually sexually attracted to. I wanted to feel it. And this right here confirmed I felt that way about Theia.

It wasn’t only about sex, though. I had romantic feelings towards her too. It scared the shit out of me because this wasn’t what I expected to happen. I didn’t know that by getting to know this woman and finding out her deepest darkest parts, I’d become enamoured with everything about her. It was almost as if a switch had flipped, and it all became crystal clear.

I wanted Theia. I wanted to make her mine… but I didn’t know if it would be a good idea, given the state of my life and everything going on in it.

Twenty One

Gilberto

Shaking myself out of my brooding thoughts, I focused my attention back on Theia. She was grinding against her hand and moaning as she did it.

“Answer the question, Theia.”

“Yes, yes… fuck.”

I pressed my mouth right up against her ear, unable to stop myself from touching her in this small way.

“Do you want me to wrap my lips around your nipple? Nibble and bite it until you’re panting? Or do you want my mouth lower, hmm? What about buried in your pussy?”

She almost lost it when I said that. I could tell by the way her body shook and the pained moan sounding from her throat. They were the exact things I wanted to do to her. The ones I trusted myself to do. I wasn’t sure what would happen if I was given free rein of Theia. How far I’d want to go.

“Both, I want both,” she cried out. “Fuck, Gil, I’m… I’m…”

“You’re going to come?”

“Yes.”

I wanted to see her fall apart. To watch her come undone because of me. The scene in front of us was building up to its final climax too. He had her on her hands and knees now, driving into her as their skin slapped together loudly. We could hear them through the speakers, but I only cared about the sounds Theia was making. Those were the hottest things I’d ever heard in my life.

“Good girl,” I whispered, making her shudder. “My good little slut.”

She let out a breath. Her body tensed, and her head fell back against the sofa. She closed her eyes, letting out a pant as it washed over her. After a minute, her body stilled, her hands falling away to rest next to her.

When she opened her blue-grey eyes, she stared right up at me with an almost lust-drunk smile on her lips.

“Did you like that?” I asked, my voice gravelly.

“Yes,” she whispered.

I reached up and stroked a finger down her cheek.

“I wanted it to be good for you.”

She swallowed but didn’t reply. I could see the wheels turning in her head, wondering why I’d done this and what it all meant. I wanted to explain, but I found the words didn’t come. It was hard for me to express the feelings I had toward her. I might want Theia, but there was still a part of me holding back with all the uncertainty in my life.

Edric and I were heavily focused on searching for these missing shipments. I might have tasked him with it, but he’d asked for my help with a couple of things. This was my family and my business. I would never let him flounder. Besides, I’d spoken to Nino yesterday, and he’d got nowhere with Dino and Gian. They were still acting like everything was fine when it clearly wasn’t. It made me incredibly suspicious. Why would they be so blasé about the situation? Probably didn’t want to look weak. They were likely afraid of what might happen if they were found out to be incompetent considering their cousin, my father, had been offed by his own son.

With all that shit going on, I didn’t want to put Theia at risk. If anyone else found out about my visits to her, it would cause problems for both of us. It wasn’t like I could stay away, either. I didn’t want to. I’d have to think very carefully about what I did next when it came to me and her.

There was also the fact she’d mentioned she didn’t seek out personal relationships. I understood why now, but I was worried she still felt that way. That she might not want this to be something. I wasn’t sure if I wanted it or not, either. Fuck, my mind was a mess. I didn’t know what the hell to do with all of these things racing through it.

I pulled myself up off the floor, aware I was still aroused, but not wanting to stay down on my knees any longer. Theia raised her head and stared into the other room. They’d finished up while we weren’t paying attention and the lights were off again.

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