He brushes a finger over my mound then moves it in a figure of eight, each time letting the finger slide a bit lower. But he teases me, never quite touching me where I need to feel it most. My skin tingles as anticipation builds and I am so turned on I could scream.

The first brush of his tongue makes me arch my back and he takes hold of my thighs, his fingers digging into the soft flesh but this turns me on even more. He licks against me slowly, circling his tongue over my most sensitive places, a meandering caress that makes me shiver with pleasure. I slide my hands into his hair and shamelessly push him against me.

The pleasure builds and he pushes a finger inside me then another, curling them in a way that hits my G-spot and makes me breathless. His tongue speeds up and his fingers work their magic and I lose all inhibitions and move with him, moaning, begging him not to stop.

When I hurtle over the edge and come hard, I cry out his name, each ripple of ecstasy shuddering through me until I am spent.

This is what I’ve been missing. This is what the books and songs and poems are all about. I want to do it again and again and again.

Edward climbs up my body and lies on top of me, resting his arms either side of my head. His mouth is wet with my juices and his eyes are dark with desire.

‘You are special, Ava. I don’t want you to ever think otherwise.’

I can feel him hard against me, the zipper of his jeans pressing into my sensitive clit, but desire is already stirring inside me again.

‘Let me make you feel good too?’ My voice wavers, unsteady. I slide my hand between us and rub it over the length of him, longing to have him inside me.

He gently removes my hand and presses a kiss to my palm then he rolls off me and sits on the edge of the bed. ‘I’m sorry, Ava. I can’t…’

‘What do you mean?’

He stands and looks down at me and I feel suddenly exposed and vulnerable, so I pull the covers over my nakedness. He rubs a hand over his face and sighs.

‘I… I don’t know… It’s just that it’s been a while and…’

Understanding washes over me then. He hasn’t been with anyone since Lucille.

I shuffle towards him and take his hand in mine, pull him down to me and hold him close. He can’t give that part of himself to me right now and I get that. I really do.

So we lie there together, me spooning him, stroking his head and letting him know that I’m there. I’m not going anywhere.

This man is special too.

Chapter41

Ava

‘It must be strange for you being back here after living in that lovely big house.’ Mum watches me over her mug of tea.

‘It is a bit but I wanted to see you both.’

Edward had asked if I wanted to go and visit Mum and Daniel before Christmas and I did, but it doesn’t mean it wasn’t hard to leave him and Joe. I got home late last night because I wanted to put Joe to bed before I left. When I arrived here, Mum was already sleeping on the chair so I encouraged her to go to bed then tossed and turned on the sofa all night. After having the luxury of an enormous bed all to myself, the lumpy old sofa is a shock to my system.

‘Does it feel like a different world here?’ Mum’s switched on and she’s seen the photos I’ve sent her since late August. There’s no point in me trying to pull the wool over her eyes, although I do want to spare her feelings.

‘It is different, Mum. Very different in many ways but I’ve missed you and Dan so much.’

‘We’ve missed you too but you know what?’ Mum nods. ‘It’s wonderful for me to know that you’re living in that fabulous house with all that fresh air and space around you. I could never have given you all that and it makes me happy to know that you’re living in a better place.’

‘Mum…’ I need to tell her. ‘You know that the point of me taking this job in the first place was because of the brilliant salary?’

‘Yes, love.’

‘Well, things have changed again.’

‘Oh.’ I see the wariness in her eyes. She’s worried that there won’t be a move and a better life for Daniel. I know she doesn’t care about what she goes through herself but she does care for her children and I told her I’d make life better for Dan. ‘OK.’

‘It’s all good,’ I say quickly to reassure her. ‘But there’s something else.’