His eyes are shining; he doesn’t look confused or upset, so I play along.
“Ooh, sounds good. I can’t wait for the chocolate cake.”
I wait expectantly for him to ask me the follow-up questions he must have, but I get nothing. Instead, Frederico reaches out his hand, and I lace my fingers through it. Anxiety is exploding like fireworks but the more that time passes, the more it seems like I might have escaped scot free. I blow out a breath of relief.
I don’t know how I got away with it but if Frederico didn’t pick up on me talking to James, then I’m not going to bring my son up. The longer I get to keep him a secret, the better.
Desert looks incredible, but then everything does in this gorgeous vineyard. Italy is the most beautiful country I’ve ever visited. I would love to be here more often in the Mediterranean countryside, breathing in the scent of nature and ripe fruits…right here in a place like this, where wine is being made under the glorious sun.
I could maybe even live here, if given half the chance. It really is a little slice of heaven.
***
I shouldn’t be here,I think as we enter Frederico’s condo. Knowing what happened here last time really has me on edge. But I made the active decision and for a reason. Iwantthis to happen, dangerous as it is. But the moment Frederico closes the door behind us and the passion grips my chest, there isn’t anywhere else this night could end. The moment Frederico walked in to the same coffee shop, I knew we would end up here. It’s inevitable because the connection between us is too strong and powerful, completely out of our control.
That sensation strengthens the moment he steps closer to me, ready to embrace me tightly. Automatically, I succumb to the magnetic force that has always been between us, starting the very first moment I saw him at the wedding. I rise up on tiptoes, so the minute he reaches me, our lips can connect after what feels like a lifetime of waiting.
Fucking hell,I almost forget the power of his lips as they knock me off my feet once more. It’s good that Frederico has a tight hold on me because I could tumble easily. I don’t want to slip away from him: I’ve craved this kiss for far too long.
“God I need you,” Frederico murmurs as he walks me backward. I remember the layout of this condo perfectly. I haven’t forgotten a moment from the last time we were together, so I can sense him nearing the bedroom where I can’t wait to be.
I might have the comfiest bed waiting for me at the Dolphin Hotel, but I want to stay here because the intoxicating sensation of being in this man’s arms iseverything. My calves hit the bed frame before I fall back on to Frederico’s bedsheets with his eyes devouring me. He climbs on the bed with me, looking like a predator ready to consume his prey. Here I am, the prey, more than willing to be swallowed whole.
I cup his cheeks in my hands and bring his gorgeous face to mine so we can kiss, with the weight of him pressing between my thighs. The excitement continues to build as we grind against one another, sparking intense memories of the last time we were together… not that I’ve ever forgotten really. Especially since I have a lifelong reminder…
Not that I want to think about my little secret right now. I can’t kill this mood. A gasp of desire vibrates in my chest as his fingers slide up my legs, eventually stroking the outside of my cotton panties. I didn’t wear lace this time, hoping I might behave myself, but of course that hasn’t happened. Here I am, legs apart, cotton panties or not.
Frantically, we pull at one another’s clothing, needing to be naked sooner rather than later. I rip his shirt off, yanking his trousers down as he tugs at the spaghetti straps of my dress. Somehow, in the midst of the chaos, we manage to end up with absolutely nothing on.
With a cheeky smile playing on my lips, I want to surprise Frederico - to give him some incredible memories - so without hesitation, I roll to my front, poking my ass out toward him. He groans, sounding like he’s half in agony, half in ecstasy.
“Fucking hell, Lexi, what are you trying to do to me?”
His fingers plunge deep inside of me first, massaging me from behind. I flick my hair over my shoulder as I balance on my hands and knees, pushing against him. But it isn’t long before I feel the pressure of this gorgeous man, begging me for permission to slip inside. I don’t know how clear I have to be: I need him!
Eventually, he gives me what I’m craving…what I so desperately need from him. He slides deeply within, making my whole body groan with desire. Fucking hell, it always feels good with Frederico. He has a way of making me feel phenomenal, no matter the angle or situation. I don’t know what he does to me, but it is powerful.
Each thrust is more overwhelming than the last. Every time he slams into me, he sends me spiraling into a powerful dizziness. It brings us closer, making me absolutely certain that I’ll soon fall asleep in this man’s arms. There’s no running away this time. Not because I think this is about to be our happily ever after, but I want to feel what it’s like to be surrounded by Frederico for just a bit longer.
The sensation is beyond phenomenal - the feeling of being at the peak of the mountain is incredible - and I want to savor every little part and commit it to memory forever.
And then I fall… head first into a deep abyss, thrashing and moaning through the glorious orgasm as it crashes on me like a tsunami. I fall into the pillow, screaming hard, knowing that I’ll never enjoy something like this again.
Frederico is definitely the only person who can make me feel this good. I can’t stop crying out his name, over and over again, as if a prayer. I can’t stop praising him because in this moment, he’s my whole world. The waves rush over me and don’t seem to stop coming. It’s an endless bliss, almost like the orgasm keeps rolling on top of itself. It’s multiple orgasms crashing through my body all at the same time, and I lose myself completely. But in the best possible way.
Chapter 10
Frederico
“Ican’tbelieveyou’releaving soon,” I mutter as I brush a stray strand of hair off her face. Her face is so beautiful as it rests on my pillow. It’s almost like she belongs right here in my condo. “This weekend has gone way too quickly.”
“I know,” she murmurs back as she snuggles into me. “It has been so rapid. But fun.”
My heart won’t stop pounding as I stare at her. I know I’m hooked all over again. I was addicted to Lexi the last time we spent the night together; I couldn’t shake her off for a reason. She was the most interesting person I’d ever had sex with. But being back with her has changed that.
Now I realize it is because there’s something there - for sure. We have a powerful connection, unlike anything I have ever experienced before. That means something, I’m sure of it. If a woman who’s going to capture my attention and change my behavior, then it’s Lexi. If no one else has come along yet to even spark my fire, even a little bit, then I’m certain of it. I want to give it a shot with Lexi to find out.
Am I still nervous? Worrying about what happened with Marianne? Of course. I don’t think I will ever fully recover from that heartbreak, but I’m starting to see that being stuck in time isn’t healthy. Marianne definitely wouldn’t want me to be alone forever.