“I love you too,” I mutter back as my eyes close in desire. It seems like Frederico wants to kiss every single inch of my skin, and I’m more than happy to let him. Space dust sparkles everywhere his lips brush my body, and I love it. Especially, knowing those sparkles will soon be lightning bolts of passion.
I pry my eyes open to watch him move downward, igniting every nerve ending as he goes. The way my body reacts to this man no matter what, is intoxicating. The first time we were together was the best night of my life, but then every single time we end up half naked like this, I’m reminded of how much I adore him.
Eventually his mouth finds my panties. He’s maneuvering to lift them aside and stroke my clit, as if I need to be fired up more. Holy shit, does he know what he’s doing to me? I’m on fire. Even more so when his eager tongue pushes deep inside of me. Everything about this is unexpected and strange, but in the best possible way. I can’t get enough. I arch my back, rolling my hips to grind him deeper within me. Fuck, this is so hot!
But just as I feel like I’m about to get carried away beyond the earth, Frederico pinches my panties between his teeth and drags them down, over the hypersensitive skin of my thighs. I’m shuddering with intense need, and he hasn’t even properly touched me yet. I don’t stand a chance. This man knows just how to make me feel good, and I cannot wait for another explosive orgasm. I might as well be teetering on the edge already.
Hungrily we strip all the remaining bits of clothing from one another’s bodies before we crash our lips together in freedom. The weight of this gorgeous man’s body is pressing down on me, and I can feel every inch of his flushed, sweaty skin. I fizzle with excitement. My core throbs with need, as my whole body screams out with desire. I need him. The kissing intensifies as his tip teases my already excited entrance. It’s almost as if he’s asking for permission, wanting to be sure that I need him.
I bite his bottom lip as I roll my hips, ever so slowly, driving him deeper inside. The sensation is electrifying; so intense I could scream. Frederico takes his time, burying deeper, staring lovingly into my eyes as he does. There’s no rush here…
Much as I’m frustrated and aching for more, I like the message my body is receiving. We have the rest of our lives ahead of us. This is no longer just a one night stand, where we have to make the most of the snatched moments we have together. The rest of our lives is stretched out ahead of us…
That’s a beautiful thought. The deeper he thrusts, the more I lose myself to the thrill that we’re together, forever. I never have to lose him again or wonder if I’ve done the right or wrong thing. I have him here with me for good.
The pressure of pleasure builds; i starts to curl my toes. Frederico’s name rolls off my tongue, over and over again. I can’t stop saying it. I can’t stop screaming out to him, clinging to him for more. By the time the tsunami of pleasure hits me hard, knocking me off kilter completely, I’m drowning in love for this man. The sort of love I never thought I would ever be able to experience.
I just didn’t see it in my life, especially not as deep and powerful as this. Wow, it’s incredible, it’s beautiful, it’s the best thing ever. The flush of bliss overwhelms me, and at the same time I can feel Frederico between my thighs shuddering with an orgasm. Love definitely makes the pleasure that much more intoxicating… so much more addictive. Now this is something I could get used to, I say to myself… this feeling is absolutely glorious.
What I love most of all is that Frederico can’t get enough of me either. He doesn’t want to let go of me. I can feel the intensity of his love, and how he’s really opened up the possibility of a brand new future for us. I don’t know how it’s going to look, but I’m very excited that it will be beautiful.
Chapter 28
Frederico
IknewIlikedLexi’s mother the moment I saw her at Adam and Allegra’s party. There was a sass to her, an awesome attitude which drew me to her. I’m so glad she’s here today as I’m meeting James for the very first time. I know I saw him at the party, but I didn’t meet him.
Not like this… I have to admit, I’m incredibly anxious about it. But with Lexi by my side, and her mother in the room as well, I’m pretty sure it’ll be fine. Especially as I can feel their welcoming energy burning off them in waves.
“Right, well James is just about to wake up from his nap,” Lexi tells me with a sweet smile. “I’ll just go and get him; then we can go to the park or something.”
I nod and watch as Lexi heads up the stairs, my heart racing at what’s about to come. Her mother reaches out and rests her hand on my shoulder.
“Hey, you’re a good man, Frederico. This is going to be fine. You’re all going to be fine.”
She’s giving me the much-needed reassurance I so desperately need. A little part of my brain is back in the past when I first found out that I had lost Marianne - and our unborn child too. I felt so hopeless and out of control in that moment, and I feel like that now. None of my children have been born in a typical fashion; everything has been messy and complicated… but at least this is going to be a much more positive experience than the last one. I get a chance to know this baby at least.
“Thank you,” I say gratefully. “I do appreciate you all being so kind. You’re making this so much easier for me… that’s truly wonderful thing.”
“You’re doing the right thing, taking things slowly. Working around James’ mood to see how he feels about everything. I’m sure there will be a positive outcome.”
I nod in agreement. I don’t think it’s just the right way to do this for James, but for me and Lexi as well. It would be so easy to jump headfirst into parenting, but I don’t think that’d be beneficial for anyone.
We need to do this slowly and in the right way…for our future, long term, and not just for now. In truth, I can see a future for us: Lexi and me taking this all the way. I didn’t think I would ever be in this position again, but I am, and I want this to be for the rest of my life.
Eventually, I hear footsteps. It’s Lexi and James. They’re coming! I straighten up, trying to look my absolute best, for when I finally meet James for real. A little laugh comes out of the woman next to me, but I ignore it. I’m not in the right head space to join in the mirth. This is serious.
Lexi brings a sleepy boy into the living room and sits him on the floor to start playing. James isn’t immediately interested in me, which is completely understandable. I’m just some random adult in the room. He’s not concerned about me. But I am about him, and there are already unexpected tears flooding my eyes. Now that IknowJames is my son, looking at him is very different. I’m not just wondering if he looks like me, I know it for a fact. Those features are mine because this really is my child. I am overwhelmed.
“Come and sit with us,” Lexi says as she takes a seat on the floor. “Come and play.”
I have to admit that it’s a little awkward at first because I don’t really know how to interact with my baby boy. But I follow Lexi’s lead, and soon it feels like James is happy to play right along with me. It’s only a small interaction, but I love every moment.
“You’re doing great,” Lexi whistles, with a giant smile on her face. I can almost feel the intense pride coming from her, which makes me feel great. I don’t know how well I’m doing, so having this confirmation is damn near overwhelming. “James seems to like you already.”
“I hope so,” I shoot back. “Thank you so much for this chance.”
“I should make us something to eat,” Lexi’s mother suddenly announces. I get the impression she’s also trying to give us a moment alone as a family. “I’ll be back.”