She forced a smile, hopeful he couldn’t see it wasn’t real in the dim light of the room. “Of course.”
He eased away from her and got off the bed. “I wasn’t expecting to find myself in bed with a beautiful woman, so I didn’t bring any condoms with me.” He crossed to the attached bathroom. “But the helitack gang uses this place often enough that they keep a stash.”
When he came back out of the bathroom, he had a condom in his hand and was gloriously naked. Eva was equal parts awed and nervous. She couldn’t stop staring as he walked to the bed.
“Excuse me, ma’am, my eyes are up here.”He pointed up at his face.
She could hear the smile in his voice and wanted to make some witty remark like any normal woman would do. But all she could think about was how the next part was going to hurt.
She rolled over onto her belly and lifted her hips. Might as well get this over with before her nerves got the better of her and she bolted from the room.
She expected him to grab her hips and position her the way he wanted, but nothing happened. She had to bite her tongue to keep herself from saying that she liked it rough.
She knew that wasn’t right. She didn’t want rough. But her throat itched to say the words anyway.
Finally, she glanced over her shoulder and found him staring at her.
“Is something wrong?” she asked. Maybe she’d gotten lucky and he’d changed his mind.
His eyes locked with hers for what felt like forever. She didn’t know what to do. What to say.
“I was wondering if you’d be on top,” he finally said, walking toward her slowly as if he was approaching a wild animal. “There’s nothing I’d like more than to watch you ride me in whatever way you want.”
She lowered her hips back onto the bed and rolled over. “Really?”
He nodded slowly. “Although the offer to stop still stands.” He reached out and cupped her cheek. “I only want you to do what you really want to do. Not because you think I want it.”
“I—I would like to be on top.” She was surprised at how much that statement was true.
“Good. Because you’re so damned sexy, I want to be there watching you as we both come apart.”
He rolled the condom on then stretched out a hand to her, helping her move to the side so he could lie down. He folded his hands back behind his head. “I’m all yours to do with what you want.”
Just like that, the heat was back. She watched him for a few seconds, appreciating the Adonis-like picture he made sprawled on the bed. But she wanted to do more than just look. She wanted to feel him inside her.
She crawled toward him then straddled his hips. Keeping her eyes on his face, she wrapped her fingers around him so she could lower herself onto his length. He closed his eyes, and his breath came out in a hiss.
She only got halfway down before she had to slide herself back up. She wasn’t sure she was doing this right at all. She gave a little squeak.
He opened his eyes. “You doing okay?”
He felt so big. That wasn’t a bad thing, but between him and her lack of experience in this position, she wasn’t sure how to make this work.
See? You do like it rough. You don’t even know what to do when someone is gentle and lets you be in control.
She scrunched up her eyes in an effort to shut out the thoughts.
“Hey.” Theo trailed his fingers down her chest to rest between her breasts. “What’s going on?”
“Maybe I was wrong. Maybe on top isn’t what I wanted.” She shook her head, blinking back tears. She was totally ruining this. “I don’t know what I’m doing.”
He moved his fingers slowly, rubbing her breastbone. “Would it be okay if I help a little? And if you still don’t like it, I’ve got about three dozen other positions I’m more than happy to try.”
“Okay,” she whispered.
He slid his hands down to her hips. “Lean forward and rest your hands on my shoulders, to give you something to root yourself to.”
As she leaned forward, he lifted her hips slightly. She let out a gasp as that angle allowed her to slide down onto him more fully.