Page 75 of The List of Things

“I’ll walk you to your car, make sure you get out safely. But don’t come back. And maybe realize that if you care about him as much as you claim to then you should let him be happy,” He turns Leah around.

He’s a good guy. A better person than I am by all means. Right now I’m too stunned to speak. She really just said that in front of everyone.

“We should jump her,” Sienna breaks the silence, and Jade nods.

“I’m in,” She agrees.

“Leave her alone. She embarrassed herself enough,” My words are drowned out by my own thoughts the minute Bellamy walks away from all of us.

I furrow my brows and look at the girls. They both shrug, not knowing what’s gotten into him either.

I follow him, every feeling in my chest being pushed away. I walk right behind him, practically stepping on him to try and catch up. He makes his way into the hallway bathroom, and I put my hand on the door, stopping it.

“Are you going to pee or is there something wrong?”

He just stares at me, “Just give me a second.” He speaks in the same serious tone he spoke to Leah in, his anger incredibly obvious.

“No, talk to me,” I insist.

“I just need a second.”

I narrow my eyes at him. He sighs heavily and pulls me into the bathroom. He closes the door and locks it behind him. I open my mouth to ask him again and he stops me in my tracks completely.

He kisses me. Hard. His lips capture mine, his hands greedy to grab my hips. My back slams to the wall as he kisses me and I lose every bit of breath in my lungs at the kiss. His hands slide down my body and under my ass. He grips the bottom of my thighs and lifts me onto the bathroom counter.Where the hell did this come from?

His lips press into me harder. My stomach is on fire, my face hot too, and every inch of my body feels like a forest fire as all of the heat spreads. He moves his hands up my body slowly, his lips still skillfully moving against mine. He slips his tongue into my mouth, caressing my own as he deepens the kiss, his fingers moving around the back of my neck, and his hand threading through my hair. He tugs on my hair, my head snapping back to expose my neck. I gasp at the pull, and he moves his lips down my jaw, and onto my neck, greedy with the way they move, and despite just how bad I want this to continue, I still have no answer as to where it came from.

“Bell…” I breathe out, and his breath catches as he begins to suck, and nip at the sensitive skin on my neck. “Bell… Bellamy,” I force his name out of my mouth, and softly push his chest, stopping him.

He takes a second, his eyes set on me, his chest moving up and down rapidly as he tries to catch his breath.

“What’s wrong? Why are you... I mean, you can kiss me anytime, but what’s... What happened? Why are you…” I don’t know how to make sense of what I’m trying to ask him, and he just shakes his head.

“Because it makes me so fucking mad, Kamryn,” He uses my full name and I watch as he steps away from me, and out from between my legs.

I watch as he turns around, and runs his hands through his messy hair.

“You’re one of the coolest people I’ve ever met... And you’re so fucking pretty, and you can be a sarcastic asshole, but you’re also really nice, and the fact that she can be so mean to you over something as stupid as who you’ve slept with just makes me so mad,” He doesn’t look at me as he rants.

“So you… Kissed me because you were mad?” I try to make sense of it but still feel confused.

“No, I kissed you because I was afraid you’d be upset and I came in here to cool off, and then you followed me. Then I was afraid you’d think I didn’t want you anymore because of what she said. So that’s why I kissed you. I guess I could have just told you. I just…” He rubs his hand up and down on the back of his neck. His cheeks are pink with blush.

I hold the counter between my legs, my body tilted toward him.

“So what you’re saying is you want me...” I look at him with a soft smirk on my lips.

It’s barely noticeable. I’m not even trying to smile, I just can’t help it. He’s angry over something silly. Leah is not important to me. Her words hurt. I can’t lie and say they didn’t. But I’m not giving them that power. Not right now. Right now I’m over it.

“Yes, I want you. I really want you Kamryn, I have fought so many urges around you so I can make it special like the list says, but god you make it so fucking hard sometimes. I do want you. I don’t think I’ve wanted anyone more than I want you.”

My stomach is plummeting and there’s butterflies, fire, and everything. Excitement buzzes in my chest. Need blooms in my belly as I look at him.

“Right now?” I ask.

“Right now, tomorrow, yesterday, every day. Yes. Right now I want you, the other day I wanted you. The day I kissed you for the first time I wanted you Kamryn,” He’s looking at me.

His stare is intense, and I don’t know what to do right now.

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