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I reach up to caress his jaw and nod. “Okay…”

CHAPTER10

Devon

Iwake up with a start when I feel her bolting upright in bed.

“Lynn,” I call her gently, reaching for her shoulders. “Love, are you alright?”

She shakes her head, and all of a sudden, there are tears in her eyes, and I feel an invisible hand squeezing my heart. "Oh, no! Please, baby, please don't cry!"

What am I saying?

Of course, she is crying!

She can only remember sparse details from last night. She is here, in my bed, and doesn't even know why.

I had thought she was okay with it, all things considered, and that she was just confused but no longer upset.

And now this?

She is in tears because of me.

I can’t stand this.

"Please, love, calm down. Please stop crying. You're killing me."

My words only make her cry even more, and I can't really blame her.

God, I’ve ruined everything!

I destroyed my only chance with her, my only shot at happiness.

I would have never allowed for things to get to this point if I had realized she was that drunk last night, but she was perfectly lucid and rational the whole night while we talked!

I turn around, giving her my back. I can't face her. My God, I managed to take advantage of her not once, but several times and today again?

How does one apologize for such a thing?

Is it even possible?

I've lost her. I've just lost her. Just when it finally looked like I had her, I lost her, and I love her so much!

What am I going to do?

My shoulders slump, and I feel my vision blur. “I’m sorry, love. I’m so sorry,” I murmur. I don’t even know if she can hear me.

Then I feel her tiny, cool hand on my back. “Devon…”

I just freeze, not moving a muscle.

“Devon, look at me.”

I sigh, shaking my head. I can’t bring myself to turn around, not if she hates me as much as I think she does right now.

“I know what you are thinking. Don’t you dare go there, all right!”

“But—”

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