Page 83 of Beyond Rosy Irish Twilight

“I would carry you, but I don’t think that’s a great idea right now.”

“Are you admitting that you’re not at one hundred percent?” I teased.

“Never, but I also don’t want you to end up on your ass, so do me a favor and hop down from there.”

I did as he asked and walked over to the shower, stepping under the hot spray. I groaned as the water washed over me. And as he stepped up behind me, I could already feel his desire pressing against me again.

“You know, we just had sex,” I teased.

“That was one time. I’m going to need you at least three more times tonight.”

“Then you won’t get any sleep and Lock will yell at me.”

He spun me around and pressed me up against the shower. “Let him try,” he grinned, lifting my leg and wrapping it around his waist. “You ready, baby?”

“Does it matter?” I laughed, but instead of my joke landing like I hoped, his eyes grew serious.

“It always matters.”

I nodded and grabbed his erection, guiding him inside me. His eyes never left mine as he slowly worked himself in and out of me. And when my eyes slipped closed, he grabbed my chin.

“Look at me. I want to see those beautiful eyes.”

My heart melted as he pulled me closer and made love to me slowly. I was so caught up in my emotions that I didn’t even feel my orgasm rolling over me until he slipped his fingers between us and rubbed my clit. The slow build of electricity rolling through me had me tensing around him and crying out. He pressed sweet kisses to my lips, rocking into me over and over as his own orgasm spilled inside me.

The water had run cold and I was shivering in his arms. He turned it off and quickly grabbed a towel, drying me off. My legs felt like jelly, but I knew I could make it to the bed. But Asher had other plans, sweeping me off my feet and carrying me out of the bathroom.

“You shouldn’t be carrying me. You’re supposed to be taking it easy.”

“I will. As soon as I lay down in bed with you.”

“You’re still wet!” I shrieked as he plopped us both down in bed.

“That’s an easy fix.”

He pulled the towel off me, bending down to take my nipple in his mouth. “Fuck, I love…your breasts.”

I ignored the nearI love youthat almost escaped his lips and pulled him down to kiss me. He pulled the covers over us and tossed the towel aside, snuggling into my body. His long, wet strands of his hair dripped down his chest, leaving little water trails for me to follow with the tips of my fingers.

He rolled over me and pressed his lips to mine. “Get some sleep.”

My eyes flew open and my body seized up. “You’re…you’re leaving?”

“I just have a few calls to make.”

It felt like my throat was closing up. He was going to leave me up here, all alone in this huge room with only my thoughts. I was tired as we stepped out of the shower, but knowing he was going to leave me had me wide awake.

“I’ll come with you,” I said, tossing off the covers.

“No, you need some sleep. You’ve been taking care of me for days. I won’t be long.”

I wanted to argue, but he was already getting up and walking away to pull on some clothes. He winked at me before leaving and closing the door behind him. I rolled toward the nightstand and turned on the light, thinking that would help me calm down, but all it did was allow my mind to freak out with all the shadows.

And with that, the memories started to overwhelm me, making my heart pound out of control as I prayed Asher would walk back through that door and tell me he was staying. I tossed off the covers and ran to the bathroom, closing the door behind me. I sank to the floor and tried to push the thoughts from my head, but nothing helped. I needed peace. I needed to not think about any of it or even have the opportunity to think about it.

I needed to feel blank.

I scrambled to my feet and flung the medicine cabinet open. Two bottles of pain pills stared at me, taunting me with their sweet bliss. All I had to do was take one and I would sleep through the night without the demons chasing me down. I glanced back at the door one last time, then snatched the pill bottle. It was only one night. I would have a good night of sleep and it would help me push past those nightmares.

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