Page 44 of Knight

He slowly moves his lips to mine and takes them in a tender kiss. We kiss and kiss without any hurry to move things along. He runs his fingertips up and down the sides of my body at a leisurely pace, as he kisses me.

I hold his face in my hands and stare at him, conveying my appreciation for how he’s handling this moment of need from me. “Make love to me, Jackson.”

He moves his fingers between my legs to make sure that I’m ready for him. I’m always ready for him. He then moves himself to my entrance, and so very slowly, enters my body, inch by heavenly inch, until he’s all the way in.

Given his extreme size, there’s really no way to adequately describe the few moments after Jackson enters my body. It’s an intense feeling of pleasure, simply taking its time spreading throughout my body.

As the pleasure trickles in, everything else going on in my life and in the world trickles out and fades into the background. It’s among my favorite few moments of every time we’re intimate. And tonight, it’s just what I need.

The toxic emotions of tonight fade away, as Jackson and utter bliss are consuming me. He pulls my hands above my head and interlaces his fingers with mine. He takes my lips in his again, as he starts to move slowly inside my body.

I’m entirely consumed by him right now. He feels so good.

There’s no rush as he moves in and out. He is making sure to give me exactly what I need in this moment. I’m grateful to him for taking care of me like this.

He eventually removes one hand from mine above our heads, and takes both hands in the other, softly holding and caressing them with his fingers. The free hand now gently moves down my arm. He takes my breast and teases my nipple until it’s completely hardened. He breaks his mouth from mine and kisses his way down to my breast. He traces slow circles with his tongue around my nipple and eventually takes my nipple into his mouth and sucks. That’s the tipping point for me, sending me into utter bliss.

My whole body is quivering as I moan Jackson’s name. Once he’s sure I’ve ridden out my release, Jackson finds his own.

After he’s done, he takes my face in his hands and gives me a slow, lazy, passionate kiss. I have tears welling in my eyes, slightly overcome with the emotion of what’s gone on here tonight.

I whisper, “Thank you, Jackson.” He nods in understanding of my tears and kisses me one more time as he slides his weight off of my body, immediately snuggling me into his side.

We lay there with his arm around me and my head on his chest. I’m tracing my fingers along his chest and stomach.

He gives me time to digest the events of the evening, but eventually breaks the silence. “Do you want to talk about what upset you tonight?”

I think I owe him that much. “Okay.” I swallow hard. I can’t look at him. I keep my head on his chest as I speak. “One of Scott’s friends came onto me tonight. He told me that he’s had feelings for me for twenty-eight years. He told me that I belong with him.” I can feel Jackson’s arm tense around me.

“What brought this about? Why is he telling you this now?”

“I told them about you. I told them that I was seeing someone and finally having fun and experiencing a little bit of happiness in my life. I thought they’d be happy for me. These guys were like brothers to Scott. They’ve taken care of me like brothers since he died. I thought I owed it to them to tell them about you. I didn’t expect the reaction I received.”

He’s running his finger up and down my arm in comfort. “How did the others take it?”

“It was a little weird at first. They were silent. Awkwardly so. I thought they were just surprised that I was already dating.”

“Already? Darian, it’s been over three years. The last thing you did was rush into this.”

“I know. You’re right. But in the moment, that’s what I thought. Then they sort of said they just wanted me to be happy, but when they asked your name, and I gave it, one of them recognized it. He had the eligible bachelors magazine in his bathroom, and he brought it out for them all to see.”

“I hate that stupid article. Freaking Donna made me do it. I must have been out of my mind to listen to her. I wish I never did it.”

“I know it’s not really who you are. Then they all got into it with me about you probably being a player. That I need to be careful with you.” He squeezes me again. “I assured them that you’re not like that and that I’m fine.”

“When did the one guy tell you his feelings?”

“His name is Nelson. He kind of accosted me when I was alone, getting into my car to leave for the evening. He told me that he was with Scott when Scott first saw me all those years ago, and that he fell for me too. I learned that he and Scott argued about it for years, even physically fighting. I never knew any of this. It was really hard to take.”

“Did he touch you?”

“He grabbed my arm at one point, but I was able to pull it away. Another of the guys, Alan, came outside at that point and pushed him away from me. He asked Nelson to leave.”

“Did he?”

“Yes. That’s when Alan explained that Nelson and Scott often fought about me. I almost feel like there’s been this big secret that Scott kept from me. I don’t know what to make of it. This came out of leftfield for me.”

“I’m sure Scott just didn’t want to upset you. He was protecting you. I would’ve done the same.” I smile that Jackson is defending Scott. Even Scott’s own best friend couldn’t manage that.

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