Something fierce and powerful all on its own—this connection between the two of us.

She wraps her arms around my neck, tugging me closer. But I tsk at her. “You’re not watching me fuck you, baby,” I admonish.

She cries out. “It’s too good.”

Her breath speeds up. Her moans shoot higher. She shudders. She’s so damn close, and I love that I know all her signs.

“Watch us come,” I demand.

I pull out, shift her from her back to her side and move behind her. I yank her against me, her back to my chest.

Lining up my cock, I slide back into her, groaning at the tight, hot feel of her welcoming me again.

In the mirror, I see her eyes flutter closed, but that won’t do. I run a hand over her tits, right to her chin. With a firm grip, I push her face to the side. “Watch.”

Her eyes open and she gasps. “We look so hot,” she murmurs, like she’s adoring the filthy movie in the mirror.

I wrap one arm around her, so I can play with her tits. The other skates over her hip, across her waist, down to her clit.

“I’ll get you there, baby,” I promise, whispering harshly in her ear. Her eyes lock with mine in the mirror.

Those amber eyes are wide and passionate. Emotional and vulnerable. Thrilled and hopeful.

And I’m devastated. I can’t ever turn back. I’m so fucking crazy for her, I have to find a way to tell her. I have to find the right time. The right moment.

No matter the risk.

She screams, then shatters, panting, crying out, moaning.

When I’mthisclose, she watches me, and I crash over the edge too.

After a few heady, blissed out, post-sex minutes, she turns around in my arms. “That was the hottest thing I’ve ever seen,” she says.

I can give that to you every night, I want to say.

But I’m pretty sure that’s not how you ask your best friend to be your girlfriend.

38

THE ROMANCE PLAY

Carter

I wake up with a slew of ideas demanding attention and a restlessness in my muscles.

It’s overwhelming, all these bumper cars in my brain and body, but in a good way. They get me up and out of bed. I leave at dawn, giving a sleeping Rachel a kiss goodbye, then I walk quickly to my home, energized by options for real dates, dictating some ideas into my phone so I don’t lose the thread.

At my house, I change quickly into workout shorts and sneakers, and soon I’m out the door, hitting the streets for a run, working up a sweat as the fog rolls through the early November morning.

With my pump-me-up playlist blasting, I fly down a steep hill toward the looming Golden Gate Bridge. I cross the bridge, running romance plays while my sneakers slap against the stone path.

I don’t want to move too fast with Rachel or too slow. Milliseconds make a difference in my job. And they matter in life too. My whole life is all about timing, on the field, and every damn day. My to-do list is a testament to how important tracking time is for me to function. I can’t be sloppy. No mistakes, no missed passes, no dropped balls.

If I’m going to risk our friendship, I’ve got to find the right moment, the right wording, the right…play.

And boom, as I reach the end of the bridge, I’m pretty sure I’ve got it.Yes, thank you, exercise. You always have my back.

Back in Pacific Heights, I race to Beck’s house, hop in my car, cranking up Taylor Swift as I drive. Except, wait. Nope.Love you, T, but you’re the breakup queen.I switch back to my workout playlist, and the rock anthems suit my mood.