Page 49 of Absolution

“I wish you’d called me, but I understand how hard it is when you feel you’ve reached the point where nothing and no one can help but the demon on our back.” I picked up the slight hint of disappointment behind her words. It was to be expected, but that didn’t mean I liked it. I knew Gina respected her sponsor, but I wasn’t going to let her be hurt any more if I could help it.

“You’re right. It just became too much, especially when Gideon called again. I had a major panic attack, and I couldn’t take it. I didn’t want to feel it anymore. I just wanted it to go away.”

Sonia shook her head in dismay. “I know exactly how you were feeling. I’ve been there. It’s not going to get any easier. In fact, it will probably only get harder. Especially now.”

It was time I spoke up. “Gina has me now.”

Both women’s heads turned in my direction with differing expressions. One had a calculating sparkle in her eye, while the other stared at me with a wide-eyed wonder.

“It’s about time,” this came from the former. “Now that I’ve seen firsthand how you’re doing, let’s go hit that meeting.”

The three of us made a short trek to the community center a few blocks away. Soon the meeting began and when the man leading it asked if anyone would like to start, Gina raised her hand. She nervously cleared her throat before speaking.

“Hi, I’m Gina, and I’m an addict…”

Chapter 30

Gina

Every day Leoand I were exploring this… thing between us. It had been the third day of detox when I realized I trusted him. He’d repeated his vows to protect me, to care for me. Just like he’d promised, he’d been there for me, even when I hit rock bottom, no matter how many times I pushed him away, and I finally believed it. I didn’t know where we’d end up, but I knew that wherever it was, he’d be there.

Yesterday it had struck me that we’d fallen into a subtle D/s relationship. It was all small things. Things like Leo cooking for me and making sure I was eating. He’d also starting setting out my clothes for me each day. While he hadn’t given me another bath, he had continued to wash and brush my hair for me. It was an indulgence I looked forward to.

At night, we’d sit on the couch and kiss. Like tonight. His kisses were wonderful, but I wanted more. Ineededmore. I needed to feel like a submissive again. It was time I made my needs known.

“Leo,” I murmured against his lips.

“What, doll face?”

“I need you.”

“You have me.”

I pulled back and stared intently at him, trying to convey exactly what I was saying.

“You don’t understand. I mean… Ineedyou.”

Holding his hand in mine, I raised it up and placed it over my breast. Leo sucked in a pained breath and his nostrils flared.

“Please, Sir.”

It was as though my plea was all he’d been waiting for, because he grabbed the back of my head and crushed his mouth to mine. He took control of it and demanded I follow his lead. Our tongues danced together, and his fingers tightened their hold on my hair. I was swept away by the power he displayed. Leo stood and pulled me up with him, our lips never leaving each other’s.

I gasped out a shocked and aroused breath when he pushed me up against the wall. He followed and pressed himself against me, caging me between his strong body and the wall behind me. I should have felt a measure of trepidation by his aggression, but instead I felt a rush of pleasure. I’d finally unleashed the lion. His Dominant sensual assault forced me to focus solely on him and all the feelings he was drawing out of me. All thoughts of Gideon and the paralyzing fear seeped out of me, especially when my entire attention was focused on Leo’s hand now kneading my breast.

Our breathing was harsh in the still room. I moaned when he squeezed my nipple through my shirt and a zing of pleasure shot straight to my core. Leo pulled back, tugging my bottom lip between his teeth with his retreat.

“I love the sound you made when I did this.” He pinched my nipple again and I shivered at the sensation, a whimper of pleasure coming from my throat. “I want to hear all the little sounds you make when you’re getting fucked. Do you beg? Are you a demanding little sub?”

“Yes,” I breathed out not even knowing what question I was answering.

Leo slammed his mouth down on mine again, and I met every thrust of his tongue with mine. My knees almost gave out when he ground his pelvis against mine, and I could feel his erection between us. We had too many clothes on.

Sliding my hands beneath his shirt, I could feel the dips and ridges of each and every one of his abs. With a tug, he let me pull his shirt up and over his head, but the second it was off, Leo was kissing me again. Then came my shirt and bra. Finally, he released my mouth, but only to trail kisses down my jaw and neck, finding a path to my breasts.

He tugged one deep in his mouth, and I could only clutch onto his head, pulling him tighter against me. I wanted to melt into him. My head was thrown back, and I couldn’t remember the last time I’d experienced this much pleasure. Leo paid homage to my breasts, sucking and pulling my nipples deep in his mouth, each tug sending a spasm of pleasure straight to my core. The throbbing was almost painful.

I felt his hands dip into the waist of my skirt as he slowly inched it down my hips. When it pooled at my feet he tapped my thigh and I stepped out of it. Cool air brushed across my still wet nipples from the attention Leo paid them, and they hardened to the point of pain. Needing some relief I cupped my breasts and squeezed.

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