I was going crazy from lust, and I couldn’t bear it.
 
 All I could think of was wanting to be in Cat’s place…
 
 But with Dario pressing me against the wall andhisbare ass thrusting his manhood inside me.
 
 I stumbled away from the door and out of the kitchen –
 
 Right into the path of Filomena.
 
 “Oh!” she exclaimed as I staggered into the hallway. “Are you alright, child?”
 
 I stared at her like she was an alien.
 
 I knew I couldn’t let her go in the kitchen – I couldn’t let Cat get caught –
 
 But I had to do something about the overwhelming lust in my body –
 
 The shame that I had watched a terrible sin.
 
 Even worse, that I wanted to do it myself.
 
 “I need to go to church,” I mumbled. “I need to go to confession.”
 
 She smiled and nodded primly. “Good. I can ask one of the drivers to take you. There is a village close by – ”
 
 “No,” I interrupted.
 
 She looked surprised. “Why not?”
 
 I winched. “Dario won’t let me off the estate.”
 
 She scowled. “Of course not… why would a murderer allow an innocent to do that which God commands?”
 
 I realized I had an ally, and I grabbed her hands as I beseeched her. “Is there another way off the grounds? A way to get to the church?”
 
 Filomena looked around her as though afraid someone might hear her. Then she turned back to me and nodded. “Yes… but I can’t take you there. I canmeetyou there, but I can’t take you.”
 
 “What? Why?”
 
 “Just trust me.”
 
 She told me to go to the west wing, past the chapel, and to a doorway at the far end of the corridor. I would know it because there was afleur-de-lis– a lily of the field emblem – carved into the wood.
 
 Once I got there, I was to knock. If there was no answer, I was to wait a minute and knock again, then keep knocking every 60 seconds until I got an answer.
 
 “Go,” she whispered. “I’ll see you there.”
 
 I did as she said and walked down the hallway, unsure why she had sent me off alone.
 
 When I found the door, I knocked once. No answer.
 
 I counted to 60 and knocked again –
 
 And this time, the door swung open.
 
 I entered the room to find a small, cramped hallway. Filomena was there and beckoned me inside.
 
 After I entered, she quickly shut the door behind me.