When it comes to Mari, I always feel like a little kid. She has her shit figured out, and I’m the joke.
I was trying to avoid talking about Brad and work, but by keeping it from her, it's made things worse.
Even though I can’t hide out forever, right now I need the space. I pull open my sketchbook and pick up drawing where I left off.
My cell rings a few minutes in.
It’s not Mari.
Grumpy Baller calling.
I don’t feel like talking to him, but can’t bring myself to hit decline.
“You didn’t answer my text,” Clay says without waiting for a hello.
“And the state of my wrist was a national emergency?”
“Is it?”
I roll my wrist around. “No.”
I did ice it, and the treatment did help.
“Tell me what’s so important you didn’t text me back,” he says.
I groan. “Are you this bossy with your teammates?”
“I’m charmingly persistent.”
“Debatable.” But I take a breath and fill him in, feeling as though I’m confessing and burdening him way too much.
He listens, his silence punctuated with steady breathing.
“It was humiliating,” I finish. “I felt like I was ten all over again and she won the spelling bee and I didn’t make it past the second word—catastrophe. I carried around her trophy though.”
“That’s decent.”
I squeeze my eyes shut. “And pretended it was mine.”
There’s a sound like a half laugh, half grunt. “Can’t see how it’s your sister’s business what you do. Who you date or where you work, either.”
The tight ball in my chest eases a bit. “We used to tell each other everything. I’m not sure when that changed.”
“You have to follow your own path. Everyone I went to school with wanted to be a doctor or a lawyer. Deciding to pursue basketball wasn’t the easy choice—it was the hard one.”
“It sounds lonely.”
“Sometimes being different is.”
My attention falls to my drawing. As ego-bruised as I am from last night, I’m not ready to hang up.
“Do you know anything about children’s charitable foundations?”
“Ask Chloe. The team’s foundation is part of her portfolio.”
I bite my lip. “I don’t want to involve her.”
I tell him I’m trying to learn to help out a friend but don’t admit it’s for Harlan. From what my future brother-in-law said, he and Clay don’t have the best relationship. Solving that is definitely beyond the scope of my powers, and at this point, I suspect that even asking about it would get me shut down fast.