Page 151 of She will Always be Mine

But something this big could easily tear apart our bond.

Somehow, it’s even worse than if we had a fight.

Will she look at me differently? Will she feel disgusted? Will she never talk to me again?

If she reacts badly, does it mean I’ll never have any friends? The more I think, the more my mind conjures worst-case scenarios.

The only thing I’m not worried about is that she’ll never spread my secret. I trust her to guard it even if it ruins our friendship. I keep telling myself that true friends stick together no matter what but I’m still scared. It’ll hurt if she judges me too.

“Do you want me there, Nyra?” Riaan’s worried voice pulls me out of my thoughts.

“I appreciate it but no.” I give him a shaky smile as he drives. “I need to do this alone.”

He nods in understanding before comforting me with, “She’ll come around. Give her time.”

“I hope so.”

A few minutes later, we arrive at my college and I get out of the car. Riaan rounds the hood to my side and cups the back of my neck, my face tilting toward his concerned one.

A sudden feeling tugs at my heartstrings that has me going up on my toes and pressing my lips against his.

His body goes rigid with shock because I’ve never been bold or unafraid to touch let alone kiss him in public. Every time we have, he’s the one reaching and claiming me like I’m his entire world.

Maybe it’s because of last night.

Or maybe it’s every hurdle we’ve come across and will continue to barrel my way that has me letting go of all my fears. Fuck everyone for trying to tear us apart.

Fuck them for judging us.

Fuck all of the people who only sees our love as wrong and tainted.

I’m done hiding us in the dark when he lights up my world like the stars in the sky. Bright. Blinding. Beautiful.

His hands grab my hips with urgency while he lets me control the kiss. His strong heartbeat grounds me, and I taste his lips softly. I don’t know how I spent those months without him but I vow to never let it happen again. I pull away reluctantly when it becomes harder to breathe.

“What was that for?” he asks, smiling.

“Do I need a reason?” I say, tugging at his tie playfully.

It actually has become our morning ritual. He lets me pick his tie every day as he dresses up for work and I tie it for him. His only demand is that I do it while I’m naked, which got quite distracting because he couldn’t keep his hands to himself.

“I’m yours to do whatever you please, baby.”

The soft look in his eyes tells me he knows it was a big step for me. The happiness that shines in them conveys just how much it means to him. Not a surprise, though, because I kept him waiting long enough.

Sometimes all we need is a push to make the fall just to land where we truly belong.

“Call me after you talk to her, okay?” he asks.

“I will,” I reply. “I love you.”

“Love you too.”

Kissing me once more, he slides into his car and drives away. A smile forms on my lips as I catch a few boys standing in a circle a few feet away. They’re watching his sexy sports car with longing.

It doesn’t take me long to find Monica, who hasn’t replied to my texts or calls since last night. Riaan literally had to snatch my phone away and force me to sleep.

I was about to fight him for it but his stern and arrogant expression stopped me. He also might have threatened to spank my ass if I didn’t listen, so I had no other choice but to oblige.

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