Page 37 of These Sinful Kingdoms

“Starlight?” I questioned and he looked away, mumbling something under his breath.

“Sorry. I didn’t mean to say that out loud. I just… it’s how I see you.” He shrugged, closing the door, and sitting back in his computer chair.

“Why starlight?” He had piqued my interest and I was determined to understand how he saw me.

“Because you are like a wish come true. You know, like a wish upon a star kind of thing.” His face was bright red now and he played with a pen on the desk, not making eye contact.

“A wish come true? I don’t understand.” I suddenly felt nervous and unsure of myself. I had come here to talk to him about everything and thank him, but this felt like a moment I hadn’t prepared myself for.

“Yeah. I always thought I would never meet a woman who could see the real me and when I first saw your face, I knew that you were the kind of woman I wanted but were out of reach. What kind of woman would want a coward like me?” He held his hands out wide, despair in his eyes.

“Kenji. You aren’t a coward. That’s why I wanted to talk to you. If it wasn’t for you coming over that night, I might not even be here. You faced your fears for someone you didn’t know. Your heart is as pure as they get, and you are an amazing person. Not to mention how much you have helped my son.” He shook his head, cutting me off with a frustrated noise.

“No. You don’t get it, Aurora. I don’t see you as just a friend or a mother. I see you as a woman. A woman that I want.” He stared at me, cheeks red but a confidence in him that had me wondering what the men were teaching him.

“Kenji…” I didn’t know what to say. He was barely twenty-two. A kid and as fond as I was of him, I had seen him as just a young man. But the way he was looking at me right now, it was with hunger.

“Don’t, Aurora. I can see the way you look at me. I’m not a boy even if I have lived a sheltered life. I am a man. A man who finally found a reason to step up and into the potential that I can be. A man who sees someone who he wants, listens to the cries of pleasure that come from your room, and desperately wants to be a part of that.” He sighed, looking down at his hands.

“I told them I wanted to be better. I wanted to show you that I am more than just some kid who plays games, and I can protect you as well. That’s why Kingston and Luca are helping me.” The look he gave me was heartbreaking, like he knew defeat was imminent.

I also understood now that Luca and Kingston were aware of his feelings, and they had taken him under their wing, encouraged him, and helped build him up.

“Do you think you could ever see me as a man, Aurora? Could you give me a chance like you have with the others?” The hope in his eyes was so intense that I could almost physically feel the pull from him to me.

“I don’t know, Kenji. I hadn’t considered that before. I think you are a wonderful person and I love watching you grow, but I don’t want to take advantage of you and your innocence.” He stood quickly, shocking me with the heat and frustration in his eyes. He stalked towards me, determination flashing before he cupped my face and kissed me.

I gasped at the force of it, and he softened, tongue tentative as he brushed it against mine. When he pulled back, the confidence was gone and he looked down, as if it had shocked him as much as me.

“I am not a boy. I may not yet be the kind of man you need, but I can learn. Give me a shot, Aurora. Please.” He searched my face, eyes roaming over every inch of my skin as I swallowed nervously.

“Are you sure, Kenji?” I asked and he nodded. His throat bobbed as he took a deep breath.

“I’ve never been sure of anything in my life. You have no idea how much I want you, Aurora. Being around you has just made it a desperation that has become painful. Will you help me take that next step into becoming a man?” He whispered and I realized what he was asking.

“You want to have sex with me right now? Shouldn’t it be more special for you? Don’t you want to wait for that…” He pressed a finger to my lips.

“No. I can’t think of a better time. Please. You have no idea how much I need this. It’s all I’ve thought about.” I watched as he stepped back, slowly taking off his clothes.

His body was pale and thin, muscles barely outlined but not an ounce of fat on him and a sprinkling of dark curly hair on his chest. When he reached his pants, he hesitated before pulling them down, his cock hard against his chest where a trail of hair led to his pubic bone.

I stared at him, eyes traveling over his body down to his cock as he stood there, proud and yet nervous all at once.

He crawled onto the bed, lying back with his arms over his head against the pillows, and smiled tentatively.

“I don’t know what I am doing. I need you to take control.” He said softly and I swallowed again, throat dry. I should leave, back away from this but his confidence and desire wouldn’t let me.

I stood, slowly removing each item of clothing as he watched me, eyes hungry even with the nerves I could clearly see beneath.

“Are you sure, Kenji? I can stop now.” I said as I straddled his thighs. My own nerves peaked, this felt naughty and yet sacred all at once.

“I have never been surer of anything in my life.” He said, hands gently resting on my thighs. I nodded before shuffling down and gripping his cock, wanting to draw this out for him and give him something special.

He gasped at my touch, eyes rolling into the back of his head before I licked the head of his cock, tasting the pre-cum that beaded there.

His hips bucked slightly as his lips parted and I took him into my mouth, tongue running over the underside of his cock.

“Oh my god. It’s better than I ever imagined.” he said, voice full of awe and pleasure as I hummed slightly, taking him deeper.

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