Page 37 of The Bachelor

And how all of this was about me.

But his refusal to set me up with his best friend was definitely something I found interesting. Not that I wanted a chance with Macon. I didn’t—at all. I just didn’t know why Camden cared so much. Why it seemed like he was trying to protect me. Why he wouldn’t offer to play matchmaker, especially given that, very soon, my virginity would be a thing of the past.

Camden

Your fingers … fuck me.

What about lesson four?

Me

You know when I said that I’m giving you all my firsts and I want one of yours? Something you’ve never experienced with another woman? That’s what I want for that lesson.

“Who’s to say the right girl hasn’t already fallen into my lap and I didn’t bite?” Even though he was staring at his sister, I could feel the penetration of his gaze. “Well, shit, maybe I bit, just not in the permanent sense.”

“You’re that opposed to a relationship?” Hannah pressed.

“Maybe.” He brought the drink up to his lips, glancing at me for several seconds and then at his sister. “Or maybe I just like fucking with you.”

“If I had a straw”—she searched the table—“or anything for that matter, I’d throw it at you right now.”

He took a long drink and set the glass down.

Camden

Hold on. I asked you to come up with three fantasies, and you’re putting one of those on me? That wasn’t the deal.

Me

I’m not exactly putting it on you. It’s more like telling you that I’m open to anything and I want you to surprise me with something that’s going to blow my mind.

Camden

I want to fuck your ass. Does that blow your mind?

“That still doesn’t answer the question about Macon,” Hannah said. “Just because you’re allergic to permanently having someone in your life—or so you say—doesn’t mean he is. I think we should put the two of them together and see what happens.”

Me

Blow my mind? No. Surprise me since it’s you? No. Freak me out? Yes. Worry like hell about it? Yesss. Camden, I’m a virgin, so you’re saying you want to do anal before you even take my virginity? That’s kind of a major step, no?

Camden

You asked. I gave you my answer.

Me

But I’m trusting you to lead me, Camden. Is that really the right direction to take me in?

Camden

Are you sure you should have that kind of trust in me? The conversation I’ve been having with my sister tonight has shown you a lot more about me. Enough to make you rethink this whole plan.

Me

I’ve learned nothing I didn’t already know.

Camden

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