Page 135 of Chasing Infinity

I can see the thoughts swirling in her eyes for another moment before she braces herself and opens up. “I’m afraid to blink my eyes because I’m worried you’ll disappear on me again.” She sighs and twists her lips downward. “I’m only getting tonight with you, aren’t I?”

I pause for a moment, caught unprepared. When I realize it’s no use lying, I pull entirely away from her before nodding my head regretfully. “Yeah, Parks, only tonight. I’ll be leaving in the morning.”

I can’t tell her about the exciting prospect this interview in D.C. tomorrow will bring or that this may be the beginning of the end. She doesn’t know about therealreason I can’t go back to Willow Heights, and I plan to keep it that way for as long as I can. If I can keep her blissfully unaware of my father’s deceitful game, I will.

Addison’s eyes fall to the bed, and she picks at a fiber coming off of the comforter. Her cheeks are still flushed from our kiss, and I want more than anything to soothe whatever’s running through her head, though I realize that might be impossible. “I thought that might be the case.”

I finally reach across the distance between us, grabbing her hand and threading our fingers together. “Parks—”

She shakes her head, and I break off my sentence. When she looks back at me, her expression is resolved. “If I only get tonight, Noah, then I wanttonight. With you.”

I raise an eyebrow, unsure if I understand her correctly. “And by tonight, you mean….”

“I want you, Noah. Please.”

Desire crashes through my body, and I suck in a breath in an attempt to control myself. I can’t let myself get too carried away without knowing exactly what she means by that.

“I’m going to need you to be a bit more specific, Parks,” I say, slightly breathless. “What do you want from me?”

She holds my gaze steady with hers, not backing down from my challenge. We’ve always been each other’s equals, each other’s other half. With that comes a level of trust and comfortability that neither of us has been able to find in another—at least, I haven’t. I hold her hand tightly in mine as she stares me down.

“I want you, tonight, in every possible way,” she says boldly, unashamed.

My blood thrums as I stare at her. “I don’t want to risk doing something you might regret down the road. I won’t do that, not with you.”

“There is no way I could regret this with you. You’re the only one I want.”

I watch her closely as I brace myself to ask my next question, “Have you—have you done this before?”

She nods, her teeth sinking into her lower lip as if worried about how I’ll react to this new development. Though a twinge of disappointment at our situation does register, I find my muscles releasing some of their tension. I take a deep breath, letting it fill my lungs and give me some clarity.

“You’re sure you want to do this? It won’t change anything,” I caution. It guts me to see the flash of disappointment cross her face, but she dampens it almost as quickly as it came.

“I’m sure. Please, Noah, I want you.”

“Well, how am I supposed to deny you when you beg me like that?” I mutter, my voice barely above a whisper. I reach out my hand, tucking a few stray pieces of her hair behind her ear. Addison leans into my touch and flutters her eyes up to me.

“You’re so beautiful,” I say as I scour her face, wishing I could spend time counting every single freckle that dots her nose. A small smile plays at the corners of her lips, and I can’t resist her anymore. I swoop in and take her lips with mine, wasting no time and tracing the seam of her mouth with my tongue until she opens for me.

Addison’s hands wrap around my shoulders, holding me tightly to her as I maneuver us across the length of the bed until I’m on top of her. Parks catches on and wraps her legs around me, ankles coming to lock against my lower back, causing us to come together in a way that makes us both groan.

I break away from her lips as I feel her center line up against the outline of my cock.“Fuck,”I groan as I grind my hips up into hers.

Addison whimpers and bears down against me. I’m sure we’re a sight, two adults dry humping each other like teenagers, but neither of us can help ourselves. It’s been too long since I’ve had her this close to me.

The hem of her sweater rides up, displaying the smooth contours of her belly. I pull away from her, leaning down and pressing kisses to her abdomen. The muscles bunch up underneath my touch, her fingers fisting into my hair as she writhes underneath me.

After I’ve tortured her enough, I pull away, pressing up with my arms and hovering above her. Her hair is splayed out across the comforter, curls everywhere. The way her cheeks flush and her breasts heave with arousal almost brings me to my knees. I’ve dreamed about this moment with her more times than I care to admit, and I’m not going to take any moment for granted.

My chest aches as I stare down at her, wondering if I will ever have another moment like this in my life. She’s all I want and all I’ll probably ever want. Unable to stand the distance much longer, I fall over her, kissing her deeply again. She opens for me without persuasion and kisses me as if this is our last time—a thought I don’t wish to dwell on too hard.

My hand traces the edge of her side until I’m bunching the hem of her sweater even higher, baring her fully to me. Addison groans in my mouth when my touch trails further up and underneath the cup of her bra, locating her pebbled nipples and tracing their hardness with my fingertips. Her back arches as I pluck one, then the other.

“Noah,” she gasps, pulling her face away from mine and dropping her head back with a sigh. “Noah, more.”

“Shh,” I soothe her, squeezing her breast in my hand. “We’ll get there.”

She groans at the denial but kisses me enthusiastically when I retake her mouth. While she’s distracted, I move my hands to her back and pull her to sit up. Catching on to my motives, Addison swiftly removes her sweater. She then unclasps her bra, pulling it off and allowing me to see her. Without any preamble, she shimmies out of her tight jeans and drops them on the floor, leaving her only in a pair of navy panties. They’re lacy with polka dots, and I lick my lips before gently guiding her back onto the bed.

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