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And with that, I gather my things and step out into the cold, where life reminds me how alone I really am.

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I haven’t studied for my test, but the answers come easily. Thank God! Between masturbating all night to the thought of Cole calling me a good girl and rethinking my decision to leave him, I got zero sleep.

“What do you mean you left?” Maggie’s voice grates on my nerves. I love the girl, but her honesty is exhausting. “He sounds perfect. If you can’t have him, can I?”

The thought of him with anyone else sends another pang of envy through me.

“What would you do? You know my father. When Isabelle got involved with that guy from that motorcycle gang, dad shot him in the shin. Then, when the guy didn’t go away, he threw his motorcycle over a cliff, and shot him in the thigh. He promised the next shot would be to his dick.”

“Of course, I remember that,” Maggie groans. “Okay, maybe you have a point. What happened to the motorcycle guy? Did he give up after the dick thing?”

“Yup! My sister’s still alone and furious with Dad, but I don’t think he cares. He’d rather know that she was‘safe.’Mick was a great guy, too. Dad just needed to get to know him.”

“So don’t tell your dad. Run off with Mr. Perfect and live in Whiskey Falls. Or move to Utah or something.”

“Cole’s life is here. He thinks he wants me right now, but in five years when all the hormones have settled, he’ll realize I’m not that special, and he’ll regret having given up his job and livelihood.”

“Sounds like he wanted to start his own business. Let him.”

I appreciate her concern, but I’ve spent all night going over how we could make this work.

We can’t.

“My dad would still be harassing us.” My voice is strained. “I’m done talking about this. I have to get to work. Are you going to be in today?”

“Yeah, later. I’m going on a run with Emery first.”

“Ooh… la… la… Look who’s causing trouble herself.”

“Whatever. We’re just friends. And Dodge and Emery have been best friends forever. It’s no big deal. He’s used to me and I’m used to him.”

“Right… Catch you later?”

She blows a kiss into the phone and hangs up, leaving me with my thoughts. It’s a place I don’t want to be. So instead of thinking, I crank up the volume, pop in a pair of ear buds, and lose myself in some late 90s country. It’s not nearly the distraction I need. In fact, it might be making things worse. My mind shuffles between thoughts of Cole last night, and the future we could have together.

I imagine myself finding Cole on the ranch today and him grabbing me uncontrollably. I picture his hands all over me as he bends me over to take what he wants. He was so big in my mouth, so hard. I can’t imagine what he’d feel like inside of me.

My pussy swells at the thought. I lean back in the chair and tuck my hand into my panties, rubbing at my thumping clit as I think about Cole’s rough hands all over me.

Less than two minutes later I’m convulsing in the office chair with a wet sticky mess between my legs.

I’d love to say I’ve got this, but I’m not sure letting go of Cole is going to be as easy as I thought.

Chapter Six

Cole

The day is damn near torture. How can I live knowing that the woman I’m meant to be with is right there? A few steps, a few words, and one tough conversation away.

I stare up at the blue sky and let out a breath. I tried not to think of her last night, but I couldn’t help myself. My cock was so hard for her. I jerked off twice in a row, just thinking of the way her innocent lips parted for my dick. She took me so hard and sloppy after she got on her knees so willingly. She took off her clothes for me so freely. She was open and honest with me. She smiled, laughed, and had a smart-ass comment to everything I said.

I need that woman.

“You coming down from there?” Bob yells up. He’s holding a plan for the new barn Waylon wants to build on the east end. I swear to fucking God I’ll quit if he put me on lead for that job. It’s too close to Junie.

“Coming down now, boss.” I take my time making my way over, trying to rationalize something in my head that makes no sense. I never move on anything this quickly. It took me years to start the build on the house and years to convince myself that the money spent made sense. Hell, it took me six weeks to decide which business cards I wanted for the carving business. With Junie, everything is different. There’s no question in my mind.She’s the one.Period. End of sentence. Next chapter. That woman is my future, I know it.

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