Page 32 of Owned By Two

Then I felt angry at myself for feeling any regret at all.

Ifanyoneshould feel regret, it washim!

Him and him alone!

I burst outdoors and ran across the manicured gardens buttressed on each side by thick jungle with its alien calls and strange creatures peering back at me.

I came to a conspicuous tree that would have looked more at home in the English countryside than on this planet.

The tree was as alien as I was to this place, and it was perhaps because of that that I felt an affinity with it.

I moved around it so that I couldn’t see the house and instead faced the dense jungle foliage.

I crouched with my back against the hard bark and let my emotions out.

I screamed and shouted and wailed, and let the tears roll down my cheeks, and formed tight fists with my hands, and slammed them on the ground.

Worms wriggled up between my legs, no doubt sensing from my pounding that a heavy rain had arrived.

My father thought he could just disappear on me at a young age, die, and then give me everything he had amassed in his absence?

Like that would somehow make up for all the pain he had caused us?

I shook my head.

No! I won’t allow it!

I’d been close to signing the document that would have assigned his riches to me and paused only when I saw his name and signature.

And I realized by signing the document, I would just be giving him forgiveness from beyond the grave.

Well, I didn’twantto give him forgiveness!

I didn’twanthim to rest easy!

I wanted him to suffer the same way me and mom had suffered!

He had all this money! All this wealth and power, and yet, he gave none of it to us!

And I knew in that instant there was no way I could sign the contract, no way I could accept his bribe — no matter how much it amounted to.

I thought about Blor, about how I had left him…

I wondered why I had felt compelled to go to my father’s funeral and lay him to rest, why I had given up Blor and all the amazing sex and deep emotions we had shared together.

For this?

I wondered if I could head back and begin our relationship and Seeding process once more.

Would he even want me? I wondered. Did he feel the same way I did?

If he did, he would accept me back without question…

But I knew deep down he had probably already moved on, didn’t feel the same way I did toward him, the same special bond we seemed to share.

He would already be with another female…

Some hot, exotic species that would quench his every desire…

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