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Every single time his lips meet mine I feel like I’m in another world. There is something about the way your body reacts to the person who you know is meant to be yours. I love Jared more than anything, and I want this to work, but if he continues down this road with his crew I don’t know if we are going to make it. And just the thought of that makes my heart ache. I squeeze my locket and hope to get strength from it.

Jared saved me in more ways than one, but it’s over and I want him, all of him. I don’t want to share him with anyone, and I don’t want him leaving me to do god knows what with his crew. What he’s involved in is dangerous, but I’m not exactly sure if he can get out of it.

He knows how I feel, but his response is all the same.

‘Babe, you know I can’t leave my brothers. I’m locked in for life’.

That’s what he tells me, and every time he says that I feel more and more like this isn’t going to work.

I want to get married and have a family one day, and I’m not comfortable with his lifestyle anymore. The last thing we need is to bring a child into the mix.

What I’m going to do is finish school and let the years run their course. I will enjoy this beautiful man for as long as I can.

Three Years Later…

I wake up and groan into my pillow. Jared’s strong arms are wrapped around my middle. He pulls my back against his front.

“Where do you think you’re going?” he grunts, and I smile.

“You know it’s graduation today, right?” I turn around and kiss his cheek.

“I know what day it is, babe, but I want to lie in bed with you instead.” His hand travels down my middle and brushes against my center.

My head falls back when he rips my panties off with one tear, and I gasp. I love when he does that.

“I need to be inside you,” he growls, and flips me onto my back.

“You always need to be inside me,” I whisper, and his gorgeous eyes bore into mine.

“You know how much I love you, right?” I nod yes and try to hold my emotions back. I know how much he cares for me. He still does business with Grady and his crew, and that’s all he seems to be doing lately. I let it go while I was finishing upschool, but he knows this is the day where he needs to make his choice, and I’m afraid that his choice is not me.

I think that if he had his way he would have already opted out, but because of his loyalty he stays. I admire how loyal he is, I do, but I need more. I want more.

“Please don’t make me choose,” he pleads, knowing exactly what I’m thinking.

“Jared, we have been over this. I want to start my career and I want a family someday. Don’t you see? I want you more than anything, but I can’t live like this. The constant worrying and uncertainty of our future. What if you die? What if we have a family and you leave me? What happens then?” My voice cracks and a few tears fall.

“Shh, baby; please don’t do this. I want to give you all of those things, and I will. You just have to trust that I will always come back to you. I would never let anything happen to our family. I want you as my wife and I want to have children with you. Erica, we’re soulmates.”

“Maybe so, Jared, but I just don’t feel right about all of this.” I sigh.

“Can you just give me more time?” He starts to trail kisses down my neck and I pull him close. When he is lined up to my center, I know as soon as he enters me I will feel complete again. I always do.

“Are you ready to feel what you do to me? What you mean to me?” he whispers, and then nibbles on my earlobe. I moan in response when he slams into me, with such force I see stars.

“Jared!” I yell, and meet him thrust for thrust.

“Yes! Please don’t stop!” I moan in pleasure.

“You’re so perfect for me. Every inch of this gorgeous body is mine. Do you understand?”

I respond by kissing him on his lips, hard and aggressive. I love how he dominates me and how he’s possessive over me. Hemakes me feel like I’m the only person who has ever mattered to him. Our tongues collide and our bodies are moving fast and hard. Every emotion, every move, feels more powerful than ever. We are one and always have been.

He breaks the kiss to lick and massage my breast. I can’t help the words that are flying out of my mouth as he worships my body.

He grabs my ass and pulls me up harder and faster, and the feeling of him inside me is deeper and mind-blowing.

I’m so close and I know he is, too.

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