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“What do you do tolet loose?”

“Hm, I don’t know.” I can’t think of the last time I did anything considered letting loose. I’ve been so focused on my career that I haven’t had much time for anything else.

“Come on, you have to do something when you’re not at work.”

I shake my head, realizing I’m a hypocrite. “No. I guess people in glass houses shouldn’t throw stones.”

He stares at me, studying me for answers I may have hidden underneath. “No skeletons in your closet?”

I laugh. “No.” The biggest skeleton in my closet right now is the fact I’m not who I’m pretending to be.

“Everyone has a few skeletons in their closets,” he muses. “It’s what makes us human. Everyone has those secrets they’d like to just wish away, pretend it never existed.” The way he stares at me makes me think he can read my every thought. That he knows my deepest darkest secrets. “Tell me one of your secrets.”

I run my hand through the water, watching it ripple. “I got turned on by watching other people.”

He moves across the hot tub, coming closer. “Does that embarrass you?”

“Sort of.” It feels like Swan’s feathers aren’t just a costume and that girl who got wet from seeing another couple having sex is part of the real me too.

“There’s nothing to be embarrassed about. You never know what excites you until you try it.”

I don’t know if the detective in me asks the next question, or the one who enjoys being under the stars with Devereaux. Either way I need the answer. “I know some of what goes on in the club, but what else?”

Chapter 25

Devereaux

Her innocence slays me. All this is new to her, so I need to take it slowly.

“Well, a lot of different things happen in the rooms. Some rooms are for domination and submission scenarios.”

“Scenarios?”

“Right. They can act out a scene or they can improvise.”

“LikeFifty Shades of Grey?”

I shrug. “Sure. There are rooms like that. However, most people just enjoy the thrill of having sex while other people watch, or vice versa.”

“Itwasthrilling,” she whispers, and my body inches closer to her like a magnet moving toward metal.

“Would you want someone to watch you have sex?” My heart pounds in my chest because I want to be the one fucking her.

“I don’t know.”

My cock jerks to life, and I breathe through my nose to calm my overworked body. “Certain things I don’t see someone like you being into,” I tell her.

Her brows pull together. “What things? You never know. I could be into it.”

I appreciate her bravado. “Chains. Whips. Bondage.”

“Are you into those things?”

“I’ve experimented in the past, but it wasn’t for me.”

“Whatisfor you?”

I suck in a breath, wanting to say just touching her would be all I need. “I like being in control.” She brushes her thigh against mine. “I like knowing what I’m doing is turning on the woman I’m with.” I trail my finger over her shoulder and across her collarbone.

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