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Conor:Do you think about what will happen once you’re done?

Star:I don’t think I’ll ever be done.

Conor:Because you don’t think you’ll get to them?

**Ten minutes later**

Conor:Star? It’s okay. You know you can talk to me?

Star:I’m David in this fight, Conor. They’re Goliath. I know what I’m up against and I know God definitely isn’t on my side. I will accomplish what I can and I will die trying. That’s all I can do.

Conor:That’s ‘doing’ a hell of a lot.

Star:It’ll never be enough.

Star:I think, this past year, I’ve come to accept that.

Conor:You knew they were big but not as big as they are.

Star:Correct.

Conor:Star, you’re allowed a life.

Star:They almost took mine.

Conor:Almost, Star. Almost. But they didn’t. You got out. You fought your way out. You deserve to live.

Star:I AM living. I’m doing what I was put on this earth to do. I’m giving voices to the women who weren’t as privileged as me.

Conor:I think you can do all that and be happy too.

Star:You make me happy.

Conor:Me?

Star:Yes.

Conor:I didn’t expect you to say that.

Star:No. But I realized I’ve never told you how much I appreciate you, Conor. I wanted to before it was too late.

Conor:Too late for what?

Star:I don’t know. Before I fuck this up.

Conor:You got a game plan I don’t know about?

Star:I exist in chaos. You know that.

Conor:Luckily for you, chaos is my jam.

Star::P

Conor:I like that you can always surprise me. It keeps me on my toes.

Star:You get bored easily.

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