My face felt like it was on fire under his gaze. I couldn’t tell exactly how he felt about my taking over his bed. I’d tried to stay in the guest room on the first level, but it was so far removed from where they slept and where their scents were concentrated. His scent had called to me the most with him being the pack leader, so I’d chosen his room.
It just so happened that I knew it might piss him off too if our first encounter was anything to go by. “The guest room isn’t ideal.” He was going to flip his lid when he discovered where I’d set up my nest.
He chose to ignore my comment, and after washing his hands, he stood in front of me and grabbed my ankle again. “Just checking to make sure it’s not bleeding through the bandage.”
The smart thing to do would have been to pull my leg away from him and get off the counter. But I sat still, my heart thudding much harder than it needed to since I was just sitting there.
His thumb ran along the arch of my foot, and I bit my lip in an attempt to not moan or whimper. Why was he torturing me by touching me? Had he turned over a new leaf since I’d heard him balk at the idea of an omega?
“What are you doing?” I whispered as he bent down and brushed his lips across my ankle.
Goosebumps erupted across my skin, and a pleased shiver raced down my spine. My head fell back against the kitchen cabinet with a soft thud.
“Are you still on perfume blockers?” He put my leg down, but instead of backing away, he pushed between my thighs so he could get closer, and buried his face in my neck. “Fuck, you smell good.”
“I’m still taking them.” My nipples pushed against my tank top, and I tilted my head to the side so he had better access to my neck.
“If you smell like this while still on them...” He inhaled, his stubble brushing across my sensitive skin as he moved his nose along the column of my neck. “Stop taking them.”
I was starting to get turned on by how he was touching and speaking to me. Instead of pushing him away, though, I wrapped my legs around him and finally buried my fingers in his hair. It would be okay just for a minute.
Who was I kidding? My body had been starved of the affection of an alpha, and now I was getting it, I didn’t know why I’d ever been so against having a pack.
He groaned, his arms going around me, our chests pressed against each other. “Do you have any idea how difficult it was trying to fall asleep with your perfume in my bed and you not in it with me?”
I did know because, as soon as I smelled their scents, I knew it was going to take everything in me to not give in to my needs. Their scents called to me, which was probably why, even with perfume blockers, I was releasing more than usual.
My body wanted them.
“I didn’t want to want this,” he mumbled against my neck, his lips brushing against my skin, sending a throbbing pulse to my clit. “But now you’re here...”
His lips ghosted up my neck and across my jaw until they were centimeters from touching me. I’d never been kissed oranythingbefore. There had never been any opportunities to explore sex while locked away at the academy besides with ourselves.
The tiniest of whimpers escaped my slightly parted lips as I thought about how different a real alpha cock would feel compared to a silicone one. “Please-”
I didn’t get to finish because his lips took mine in a hungry kiss that both excited me and scared the crap out of me. It was as if I was feeling desire for the first time in my life. Sure, I’d masturbated during my subdued heats, but it had never felt so right and so good. And all he’d done was kiss me.
My fingers tugged at his hair and his tongue probed at my lips, seeking entry. I opened for him, not sure if what I was doing was correct, but it felt right. The wetness of my slick between my legs made me tingle and ache, and the need to move against him was too strong to resist.
I barely knew this man, yet there I was, ready to hump him on the counter. If he was causing this strong of a reaction now, I could only imagine what my heats would be like, especially if I went off my heat suppressant.
Beckett’s hands moved under my shirt, starting at my lower back, and then traveling up along my spine. I arched into him, our kiss becoming even more frantic. He groaned, his lips moving back down to my neck, right under my ear.
“Stop me now.” His voice was lower and filled with lust. “Stop me now or there’s no turning back.”
His hands moved to wrap around my sides, his thumbs brushing under my breasts and making me feel dizzy. Did I want this? Did I want to give in to this overwhelming physical pull I had to this man?
I was naive to think I’d be able to resist alphas once I was in the thick of them. There was part of me that didn’t want the all-consuming need and love. I had goals and plans, and what if this pack didn’t let me see them through?
Beckett pulled back, gripping my chin gently after I didn’t respond quickly enough. “I need to hear you say it, Kara.”
Kara.
Whatever I’d been feeling quickly shattered, just like the glass I’d dropped. I shoved him away, embarrassment and anger making my eyes burn. I hissed as my feet hit the ground, my cut stinging.
Of course they’d wanted my sister. I didn’t know or care how the mix-up had happened, but it had, and now the sliver of feeling I’d let myself have was dashed away.
It was painful, and I could only imagine how much more painful it would be to bond with a pack and then have something tragic happen.