Page 12 of A Tortured Temptress
"I can't tell you it all. I'm not ready. You might hate me when you do know," I say, exposing the truth of my fears.
"I could never hate you." He leans forward and kisses the tip of my nose. "Do you know what mo chroi means?" I shake my head again. I never looked it up or asked any of the girls what it meant because I knew if I knew it would change everything.
"Please don't tell me," I beg him as he cups my cheek tenderly.
"My heart." He pauses, and I close my eyes because I can't have it. "You've had it since the moment I saw you."
"I can't have it Shane, I don't have one to give you back." The tears roll from my eyes down the side of my face into my hair and then the comforter we're laying on.
"Then you have mine." He's so matter of fact with it.
I open my eyes and take him in. The pain is almost too much. I want to tell him. I need to tell him, so he'll take it back and not be hurt by me. So that someone hears my pain. It's been so long since I spoke their names. So long since I remembered them with happy thoughts. But I can't because they are all dead because of me. The anger is almost instant, and I know the moment he sees it in my eyes.
"I can't have your heart because I murdered people and mine was taken as payment." I start to push against him trying to get him off me.
He pulls my hair and I moan the pain so sweet. I look up at him and his lips slam down on mine. Hard, brutal, and full of pain.
When he bites my lip, I moan again. I've never felt this way before. I don't understand what is happening. Why is the pain making my core ache? Making me want more from him.
From earlier, I remember the pain of him entering me, stretching me and I instantly want him again. But this time I want him to take it. He pulls back and looks me in the eye. I see the desire in his. Nothing but his need. This is the way I can possess him and keep his heart. When he pulls back taking his warmth and security with him, I raise up to bring him back.
He reaches behind his back, and I see the glint of steel before the blade is in my face. I'm not scared.
I know he won't hurt me. Shane sets the blade next to my head. I'm looking at it when I feel the pull. I turn back as he rips his shirt open, buttons flying everywhere. I cry out but not in pain, I want this. I want him to be brutal with me. I need it.
I don't understand it, but I need it. It's not like with Britain. It's just the way I want Shane. He takes the knife and drags the back of the blade down my scar between my breasts. My nipples pucker. The coolness of the metal against my skin has me arching my back. I need it.
"Give it all to me," I moan, and I raise my hands over my head holding onto the headboard. With the knife he cuts my bra, I feel the slight prick of the blade as it nicks my skin. Instead of fear, my core clenches and my clit throbs.
"Feck mo chroi, seeing my blade against your skin. Seeing my mark on your beautiful skin makes me hard. I want to plow my cock into your little cunt. I want to give you everything you give me." His voice is gruffer than I've ever heard it. "The way you're willing to submit to my desire is fecking sexy."
"Please Shane, I want everything." He moves from the bed and strips from his clothes. I sit up and pull off my panties and ruined bra, along with his shirt. When I lay back down, I again reach for the headboard, spreading my legs so he can see my desire for him as plain as day.
I'm not focused on the past any longer. I only want him and the present. What he can do to my body. What he will do to me.
I don't know where this woman was before, but I feel strong. For the first time in longer than I can remember I feel invincible in this moment. My man wants me.
He kneels between my spread legs. I watch him as he drags the back of the knife up my leg across my pelvis and back down my other leg.
"Your skin is so soft. So beautiful." He groans as he now takes the knife across my abdomen. "I need to taste you. I won't withhold your orgasm. I won't ever punish you that way. Please?"
My chest is heaving. My breath panting out and I can't say the words I just nod. I want to feel him there. I want to feel his teeth all over me. He sets the knife next to my hip and leans forward dragging his tongue along my scar. Another scar at my abdomen he kisses and bites the flesh. The scar tissue causes the sensation to feel more intense. I roll up my back arching to his mouth. He proceeds to lick, bite, and suck on my stomach and down to my core. I stay in this moment and watch him as his blonde hair falls forward when he places a gentle kiss on my clit. It's like an explosion and I cry out from the feelings. The orgasm so unknown. He falls onto me like a starving man and starts devouring my flesh.
I moan and cry out. At one point I scream as I orgasm again when he bites my clit. The pain so intense but the desire that follows almost makes my heart stop. I feel his thick fingers slide into me and push down as he pumps in. He sucks on my clit hard and when I come this time my eyes roll back and when I open my eyes again Shane is over me.
He has my legs spread wide over his arms. His cock is notched at my entrance.
"Hold on," is the only thing he says before he slams into me so hard the bed moves. I cry out as the pain rolls through me and then the desire follows. I've never felt this way before and when he continues to move over and over into me, I feel him everywhere. He's so deep inside me that I feel like he's a part of me. Our souls mingling together.
He pulls out and flips me over. When he pushes into me this time, he grabs my hair and pulls me up my back to his chest. His body is wrapped around mine. His cock moving in and out of me. The hand in my hair pulls my head back and toward him. He takes my lips in another brutal kiss. I taste metal and realize it's blood. He doesn't stop kissing me as his other hand zeros in on my clit and stars burst behind my eyelids. The orgasm rolls through me as he releases my lips and pushes me forward. I feel him slamming into me harder and harder until he finally stills, and I feel his hot cum filling me up.
I must pass out because the next thing I know I feel a warm washcloth brushing over my body before he wipes me clean between my legs.
I feel him wrap around me naked and I fall asleep feeling safe and content.
Shane
I come awake as soon as I feel her move. She slides from the bed, and I hear her move toward the loo. When she comes out, I hear her rustling around.
